mentally lost cel 1
A Ghost in Istanbul
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Previous week I got drunk and was rambling on the streets, when I got to a bus i somehow did something? And a white knight “tough guy” got angry and said bro there is woman here get yourself together and pushed me a bit, maybe I was touching someone? I don’t know
i said ok ok like a coward guy , I didn’t want to get into a fight,is that the normal way ? I maybe would’ve beaten that guy if I wanted ,white knight was a lot smaller probably older than me
man I wish I wasn’t such a coward most of the times , my head was really fuzzy whatever the fuck that was
I always don’t want to get into arguments or fights mostly,I didn’t wanted to get beaten or if I won , get into trouble,I wish I had the guts to talk back without anxiety or cowardly (submissive)
I feel so much like a fucking loser ,as always continuing to be the biggest loser,coward,pathetic guy on earth haha
also I pissed to the street and threw up
everyone looks like they were and still are waiting for a reason to attack me someway
i was never mostly like that,I didn’t want to hurt anyone in any way, that’s why they could look at me that way or push me aside, if I was more jacked had tattoos and shit the guy would think twice before doing shit to me
I wish I would’ve talked good and pushed the guy more and beaten him but I didn’t and I can’t cuz I’m a pathetic cowardly and weak loser ,I just get scared and didn’t want to start trouble
whatever for this weird post, just wanted to throw the things I’ve thought
i said ok ok like a coward guy , I didn’t want to get into a fight,is that the normal way ? I maybe would’ve beaten that guy if I wanted ,white knight was a lot smaller probably older than me
man I wish I wasn’t such a coward most of the times , my head was really fuzzy whatever the fuck that was
I always don’t want to get into arguments or fights mostly,I didn’t wanted to get beaten or if I won , get into trouble,I wish I had the guts to talk back without anxiety or cowardly (submissive)
I feel so much like a fucking loser ,as always continuing to be the biggest loser,coward,pathetic guy on earth haha
also I pissed to the street and threw up
everyone looks like they were and still are waiting for a reason to attack me someway
i was never mostly like that,I didn’t want to hurt anyone in any way, that’s why they could look at me that way or push me aside, if I was more jacked had tattoos and shit the guy would think twice before doing shit to me
I wish I would’ve talked good and pushed the guy more and beaten him but I didn’t and I can’t cuz I’m a pathetic cowardly and weak loser ,I just get scared and didn’t want to start trouble
whatever for this weird post, just wanted to throw the things I’ve thought