BlackLowLtn
Mr. Loverman - BlackCommander of the Fourth Reich
★★★★★
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It's genuinely saddening: a symbolic embrace of want and closeness, embodying the deepest connections this world can offer, just completely barred out.
I will never be able to see a smile and comfort, aimed at me for once.
I'm just tired man.
I am just drifting at this point; university and my placement year was supposed to be my answer to finding some direction in life, yet I got hit by the bleak future when I started my placement.
The future where I will be spending the rest of my life slaving away in office work I hardly care for, with nobody I would go back home to. No personal calls missed, no texts sent, no family to be had.
Don't even have loving parents that I could spend time taking care of, what am I even doing at this point?
What was all of this even for?
Why is everything so bleak? I just get drawn to looking at .is even as I was supposed to be getting used to the role, only here do I feel somewhat seen, even if I don't really agree with some sentiments here.
It's dreadful, I genuinely have nothing. Why did I even try? I am an utter trash, nobody will ever like me, fuck it all. I want to just hide away at this point yet I can't, I don't want to be seen no longer yet still don't want to be invisible; it's all so fucking confusing.
Every hobby built only makes me wish I could share it with someone else, any achievement made makes me shrink back to despair as there is nobody to celebrate with, every improvement made just solidifies my worst fears.
Life is lame, I don't care about any fuck ass reason as to why, it just sucks.
It all is so horrible and lonely, maybe I have to try even harder to forget about it.
I will never be able to see a smile and comfort, aimed at me for once.
I'm just tired man.
I am just drifting at this point; university and my placement year was supposed to be my answer to finding some direction in life, yet I got hit by the bleak future when I started my placement.
The future where I will be spending the rest of my life slaving away in office work I hardly care for, with nobody I would go back home to. No personal calls missed, no texts sent, no family to be had.
Don't even have loving parents that I could spend time taking care of, what am I even doing at this point?
What was all of this even for?
Why is everything so bleak? I just get drawn to looking at .is even as I was supposed to be getting used to the role, only here do I feel somewhat seen, even if I don't really agree with some sentiments here.
It's dreadful, I genuinely have nothing. Why did I even try? I am an utter trash, nobody will ever like me, fuck it all. I want to just hide away at this point yet I can't, I don't want to be seen no longer yet still don't want to be invisible; it's all so fucking confusing.
Every hobby built only makes me wish I could share it with someone else, any achievement made makes me shrink back to despair as there is nobody to celebrate with, every improvement made just solidifies my worst fears.
Life is lame, I don't care about any fuck ass reason as to why, it just sucks.
It all is so horrible and lonely, maybe I have to try even harder to forget about it.





