Absolutely nothing brings me happiness in this mediocre life.
I force myself to fap and stay up all night just for the short-lived dopamine rush, and to relieve the sexual tension that makes me boil over with rage.
Video games don't fully capture my attention anymore, at this point im just trying to waste time as fast as possible.
I am beyond broken, I am destroyed by the realization that the moment I was born I was to be blocked from the full life experience. I've never had real friends, getting a gf is so far out of my reach that I am mostly apathetic towards even bothering to try for one.
No activity has ever brought me the slightest amount of consistent joy or fulfillment, I don't have interests or hobbies anymore unless you include using a fucking PC.
It's so unbelievable over for me, this forum is the only connection I have left to being a total loner.
My frame is so hideously bad, my wrists are barely 5", my shoulders are short and rounded like a subhuman. I want to rope, I want to put a shotgun to my head and pull the trigger. everyone wants me dead even my family wouldn't mind if i died because i'd be one less burden on their shoulders.
I force myself to fap and stay up all night just for the short-lived dopamine rush, and to relieve the sexual tension that makes me boil over with rage.
Video games don't fully capture my attention anymore, at this point im just trying to waste time as fast as possible.
I am beyond broken, I am destroyed by the realization that the moment I was born I was to be blocked from the full life experience. I've never had real friends, getting a gf is so far out of my reach that I am mostly apathetic towards even bothering to try for one.
No activity has ever brought me the slightest amount of consistent joy or fulfillment, I don't have interests or hobbies anymore unless you include using a fucking PC.
It's so unbelievable over for me, this forum is the only connection I have left to being a total loner.
My frame is so hideously bad, my wrists are barely 5", my shoulders are short and rounded like a subhuman. I want to rope, I want to put a shotgun to my head and pull the trigger. everyone wants me dead even my family wouldn't mind if i died because i'd be one less burden on their shoulders.
