Mainländer
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I was absent from here for a while to focus on writing my VN (I've decided it'll be a Visual Novel and not a book, I already have a team to work on it) and to try to improve my mindset for the carnival. But today I went out again with the same chadlite friend as always. He kissed and got the contact from three girls, including one I said I wanted (we approached reversed, I don't know if it was on purpose form him; the other girl rejected me).
I got rejected like 6 times, then I stopped trying, I just approached the friends to help him, I could tell so clearly they had no interest I din't even try. I just spewed some bullshit about my academic prospects to keep the girl from disturbing my friend.
Then at one point I felt so bad I just left without letting my friend know. He got mad at me. I think our friendship might end soon, we're too different. It's tough being friends with a ~7.5/10 22 yo guy as an oldcel. I think I'll stop going out to try to pick up girls after this last carnival now.
I have been praying for chastity to God, I think it might be working, my libido has decreased. I still fap but it feels like it's just out of anxiety and addiction. It's tough to even cum.
I also enrolled at the uni, so many feminists and liberals in general there. I must hide my powerlevel big time. A black feminist accused a guy of touching her on the bus towards there, I had to get out before my stop to avoid laughing.
EDIT: I forgot mentioning, at one point a girl from a set we had approached but bounced after I got rejected and he didn't even try to kiss the girl came running after me to tell me her friend wanted to make out with my friend. He kissed her and set a date with her. I stood there with the other foid who had already rejected me, we both forcing ourselves to talk a bit for things not to bee that awkward. I had to do like the Brazilian saying advises, laugh at it not to cry.
I got rejected like 6 times, then I stopped trying, I just approached the friends to help him, I could tell so clearly they had no interest I din't even try. I just spewed some bullshit about my academic prospects to keep the girl from disturbing my friend.
Then at one point I felt so bad I just left without letting my friend know. He got mad at me. I think our friendship might end soon, we're too different. It's tough being friends with a ~7.5/10 22 yo guy as an oldcel. I think I'll stop going out to try to pick up girls after this last carnival now.
I have been praying for chastity to God, I think it might be working, my libido has decreased. I still fap but it feels like it's just out of anxiety and addiction. It's tough to even cum.
I also enrolled at the uni, so many feminists and liberals in general there. I must hide my powerlevel big time. A black feminist accused a guy of touching her on the bus towards there, I had to get out before my stop to avoid laughing.
EDIT: I forgot mentioning, at one point a girl from a set we had approached but bounced after I got rejected and he didn't even try to kiss the girl came running after me to tell me her friend wanted to make out with my friend. He kissed her and set a date with her. I stood there with the other foid who had already rejected me, we both forcing ourselves to talk a bit for things not to bee that awkward. I had to do like the Brazilian saying advises, laugh at it not to cry.
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