...place where rubbish is collected here (don*t know the word to use here). This was the number one thing I was supposed to do today, and when I was not able to do it, I did not do anything other also. Reason? Because I am too exhausted and stressed to see foreigners (men). For this reason I did not and do not even open the windows or the door, because I heard speaking from the outside more or less the whole day. People would also see what I was doing and that I used a winter jacket even though it is 30 Celsius warm outside (because I need the keys in the pocket).
The same reason why I am starving, going to the grocery store I would see even more foreigners. That's why in recent months I only go right when it opens at 7 AM. Any other time I simply rather go hungry than go. This is even one big reason that I have not yet lost my virginity to an escort, because during the trip I would see foreigner men with autochthonous women and no way I could fuck a foid happily spending at least 100/120 euros (for 30 minutes) during that mental state. It would not be a problem if I saw the same amount of autochthonous-foreigner couples where the woman is a foreigner. But the reality where I am is that I last saw one in the autumn if I recall correctly while I see the opposite every single day multiple times if I go outside.
EDIT: I would have to do the rubbish-trip two times, because I can't take it all with one trip. Also, I've had now meat in the heat lying in my floor next to the door since Thursday and now it is almost Tuesday and I have still not gone outside to take it away. Biowaste also which has fruit flies and lots of different kind of spoiled things in room temperature which were supposed to lie in the floor just for some hours instead of days.
The same reason why I am starving, going to the grocery store I would see even more foreigners. That's why in recent months I only go right when it opens at 7 AM. Any other time I simply rather go hungry than go. This is even one big reason that I have not yet lost my virginity to an escort, because during the trip I would see foreigner men with autochthonous women and no way I could fuck a foid happily spending at least 100/120 euros (for 30 minutes) during that mental state. It would not be a problem if I saw the same amount of autochthonous-foreigner couples where the woman is a foreigner. But the reality where I am is that I last saw one in the autumn if I recall correctly while I see the opposite every single day multiple times if I go outside.
EDIT: I would have to do the rubbish-trip two times, because I can't take it all with one trip. Also, I've had now meat in the heat lying in my floor next to the door since Thursday and now it is almost Tuesday and I have still not gone outside to take it away. Biowaste also which has fruit flies and lots of different kind of spoiled things in room temperature which were supposed to lie in the floor just for some hours instead of days.
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