Was always a skinny fat fuck. Acne made me think I was worthy of nothing so I never even bothered trying and was junkfoodmaxxing instead. Honestly if you’ve never been lean you don’t know what you really look like. Maybe I could’ve ascended if I had been lean and my parents had treated my acne properly- foids had way lower standards back then. Now I’m old with bone loss and saggy skin so there’s no hope for me anymore 
