SuicideFuel I was just listening to music and the feeling came again.

[seija]

Im currently LDARing in bed listening to sone music, specifically Mother 3 tracks and I close my eyes and I start imagining my waifu again.

This time its like a slideshow of how we first met, confessing our love for each other, having fun, snuggling in bed, having kids, getting married, me dying in a hospital bed with my waifu, my kids and my grandkids at my side during the last moments of my life before dying with a smile on my face. Well not in that order of course, the order is chronologically off but you get it.

I started to feel sad, miserable but also numb at the same time because my waifu is only 2d and she will never be real. Even if I did get a girlfriend it just wouldnt feel the same. Why do I do this to myself every night, it fucking hurts. I'm sorry if this is a repeat thread to what I've posted a few days ago, this still hurts.

If you guys want to know what tracks I was listening to, here:

 

[Dionysus]

It feels good when I do this tbh I just tell myself ill be with her when i die

 

[Deleted member 16455]

I’ll never have any foid besides me

 

[Braincel14w]

Music is suifuel I can't listen to any of it anymore. When the emotions are evoked in me I just remember how much those feelings and lyrics lied to me and lead me into despair. I shun music. It is evil to me.