SuicideFuel i was driven to near suicide at 12-13 due to being bullied for my looks and autism

[St.Greypiller]

so story time , when i was younger i always used to get bullied for being subhuman. now obviously at the time i wasnt aware of the blackpill but it made sense later in life when i realized. People would laugh at me and call me shit and make fun of me , Some people were even bold enough to directly attack my looks. It was brutal because at the time i didnt know why people where being assholes to me , Back when i was a kid i thought maybe i was the problem and i was doing something wrong because i was was walking funny or something. this uncertainty eventually led me to becoming suicidal.


I was still a kid man , i didnt deserve to be treated so horribly. it was so long ago yet the expierences still stick with me , One day i decided i had enough and began planning to kill myself by throwing myself off a building. I lived near an apartment building which was near my families house , and walked up the steps and managed to reach the 3rd floor. i looked down the railing and was ready to throw myself off, thinking i would make everybody happy because at the time young greypiller thought to himself that he was doing something wrong and couldnt point his finger on why. now looking back at it , it was quite messed up i was having suicidal thoughts at such a young age. anyway i couldnt get myself to do it , ended up fucking off back home and crying my eyes out not knowing why everybody treated me like shit.

please spare some sympathy for my brutal childhood in replies
@Fat Link @Acorn @AtrociousCitizen @Friezacel @rapetorturekill

 

[St.Greypiller]

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[8CbZA-kHFu6pFgE*]

brootal, i can somewhat relate. I got bullied hard because of my height and autism and my parents didnt care

 

[St.Greypiller]

@uggo mongo @SlayerSlayer @Friezacel @zd60 @Excalibur

 

[St.Greypiller]

brootal, i can somewhat relate. I got bullied hard because of my height and autism and my parents didnt care

it was depressing man , even when i was a kid i used to get shat on. i never did anything to nobody , but i guess normies just like picking on the weak and vulnerable.

 

[St.Greypiller]

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[incel3roar]

brootal, i can somewhat relate. I got bullied hard because of my height and autism and my parents didnt care

Truth.

 

[Blackpill Monk]

brootal, i can somewhat relate. I got bullied hard because of my height and autism and my parents didnt care

Same

 

[St.Greypiller]

Truth.

yeah its brutal , i was excluded everywhere. i overheard my own parents calling me ugly when i was 11

 

[incel3roar]

yeah its brutal , i was excluded everywhere. i overheard my own parents calling me ugly when i was 11

Brutal man. Hope you can atleast cope.

 

[St.Greypiller]

Brutal man. Hope you can atleast cope.

it never gets better man , every opportunity that ive tried taking has never worked. Im jason voorhees reincarnate , lanklet subhuman monster with a disfigured face

 

[incel3roar]

it never gets better man , every opportunity that ive tried taking has never worked. Im jason voorhees reincarnate , lanklet subhuman monster with a disfigured face

The only help is to cope or rope. Theres not much else you can do at that point. Ive chosen to cope for now.

 

[Spiteful Mutant]

sounds awful mang. normies relish in enforcing the pecking order. they are like animals and i hate them for making me and other 'cels miserable. they won't ever change so imma just cope til i rope tbh that is all i can do atp

 

[FEMCELS FANTASY]

I’m really glad you shared this. What you went through wasn’t small, and it wasn’t something a child should ever have had to carry alone.

You were a kid and kids don’t deserve to be labeled, analyzed, or treated like problems that need fixing. They deserve safety. What happened to you wasn’t a reflection of your worth or your body or your walk or anything inherent to you. It was a reflection of cruelty, immaturity, and a failure of the people around you to protect you.

What stands out most to me is not “why” you were treated that way but how alone you felt while trying to make sense of it. A child trying to reverse-engineer abuse will almost always turn inward and assume they’re the defect. That isn’t weakness. That’s what an unprotected mind does to survive confusion.

The fact that you reached that level of despair so young tells me not that you were broken but that the pain was overwhelming and unprocessed. And the fact that you didn’t jump matters. Not because it makes you heroic but because some part of you, even then, knew that what was happening wasn’t right, even if you couldn’t name it yet.

Those memories sticking with you makes sense. Trauma doesn’t obey calendars. It doesn’t care how long ago something was it stays vivid when it was never properly witnessed or validated at the time.

I want to say this clearly, without platitudes:

You were not “subhuman.” You were a child being harmed.

Those are not the same thing, and they never were.

If that younger version of you could hear anything now, I hope it would be this: You didn’t fail. You survived something you shouldn’t have had to.

Thank you for trusting someone with this story. It deserved to be heard then, and now.

 

[superpsycho]

brutal man, clown world.

 

[The Judge]

I can relate. Even before I even knew what an "incel" was, my peers would relentlessly torment me. At the time, I wondered "Why?" As my experiences grew, I eventually went through two suicide attempts. The first time around, I tried to get run over by a car. The second time, I held a knife to my own throat yet my mother's scream caused me to back down.

Your grief is perfectly valid. You did absolutely nothing wrong, and yet they close to target you. Why? Because they could. No other reason.
Everyone always tells us to get over our boyhood trauma, yet these negative experiences occured only yesterday in our minds. While those who have wronged us have sleepless nights, we spend ours cycling through every cruel, spiteful word directed at us.

My heart goes out to you and to all us lost souls who had to endure this.

 

[St.Greypiller]

I’m really glad you shared this. What you went through wasn’t small, and it wasn’t something a child should ever have had to carry alone.

You were a kid and kids don’t deserve to be labeled, analyzed, or treated like problems that need fixing. They deserve safety. What happened to you wasn’t a reflection of your worth or your body or your walk or anything inherent to you. It was a reflection of cruelty, immaturity, and a failure of the people around you to protect you.

What stands out most to me is not “why” you were treated that way but how alone you felt while trying to make sense of it. A child trying to reverse-engineer abuse will almost always turn inward and assume they’re the defect. That isn’t weakness. That’s what an unprotected mind does to survive confusion.

The fact that you reached that level of despair so young tells me not that you were broken but that the pain was overwhelming and unprocessed. And the fact that you didn’t jump matters. Not because it makes you heroic but because some part of you, even then, knew that what was happening wasn’t right, even if you couldn’t name it yet.

Those memories sticking with you makes sense. Trauma doesn’t obey calendars. It doesn’t care how long ago something was it stays vivid when it was never properly witnessed or validated at the time.

I want to say this clearly, without platitudes:

You were not “subhuman.” You were a child being harmed.

Those are not the same thing, and they never were.

If that younger version of you could hear anything now, I hope it would be this: You didn’t fail. You survived something you shouldn’t have had to.

Thank you for trusting someone with this story. It deserved to be heard then, and now.

thank you for the kind words admincel , normies were cruel to me my entire childhood. I dont know how young kids can be so cruel and horrible , i was legit getting excluded already at an even lower age and then young greypiller tried "fixing" his problems (didnt do anything wrong) i always assumed i was doing something wrong back then.

 

[St.Greypiller]

I can relate. Even before I even knew what an "incel" was, my peers would relentlessly torment me. At the time, I wondered "Why?" As my experiences grew, I eventually went through two suicide attempts. The first time around, I tried to get run over by a car. The second time, I held a knife to my own throat yet my mother's scream caused me to back down.

Your grief is perfectly valid. You did absolutely nothing wrong, and yet they close to target you. Why? Because they could. No other reason.
Everyone always tells us to get over our boyhood trauma, yet these negative experiences occured only yesterday in our minds. While those who have wronged us have sleepless nights, we spend ours cycling through every cruel, spiteful word directed at us.

My heart goes out to you and to all us lost souls who had to endure this.

people showed me nothing but cruelty my entire life , i was always a generally good person but i was treated like a monster by anyone no matter how kind i was

 

[St.Greypiller]

brutal man, clown world.

sounds awful mang. normies relish in enforcing the pecking order. they are like animals and i hate them for making me and other 'cels miserable. they won't ever change so imma just cope til i rope tbh that is all i can do atp

normies are the most disgusting people of all time , they take innocent subhumans childhood away and send them down the path of substance abuse , coping and unemployment. cucked system in a cucked soyciety

 

[Rapistcel]

so story time , when i was younger i always used to get bullied for being subhuman. now obviously at the time i wasnt aware of the blackpill but it made sense later in life when i realized. People would laugh at me and call me shit and make fun of me , Some people were even bold enough to directly attack my looks. It was brutal because at the time i didnt know why people where being assholes to me , Back when i was a kid i thought maybe i was the problem and i was doing something wrong because i was was walking funny or something. this uncertainty eventually led me to becoming suicidal.


I was still a kid man , i didnt deserve to be treated so horribly. it was so long ago yet the expierences still stick with me , One day i decided i had enough and began planning to kill myself by throwing myself off a building. I lived near an apartment building which was near my families house , and walked up the steps and managed to reach the 3rd floor. i looked down the railing and was ready to throw myself off, thinking i would make everybody happy because at the time young greypiller thought to himself that he was doing something wrong and couldnt point his finger on why. now looking back at it , it was quite messed up i was having suicidal thoughts at such a young age. anyway i couldnt get myself to do it , ended up fucking off back home and crying my eyes out not knowing why everybody treated me like shit.

please spare some sympathy for my brutal childhood in replies
@Fat Link @Acorn @AtrociousCitizen @Friezacel @rapetorturekill

Very relatable

 

[St.Greypiller]

Very relatable

normies are cruel pieces of shit , i used to jestermaxx when i was very young because i thought i wasnt good enough and thats why they were poking fun at me. Although Im still somewhat of a jester online i just do it out of boredom to ease the melancholy abit

 

[superpsycho]

normies are the most disgusting people of all time , they take innocent subhumans childhood away and send them down the path of substance abuse , coping and unemployment. cucked system in a cucked soyciety

normies are the main cause of my misanthropy.

 

[St.Greypiller]

normies are the main cause of my misanthropy.

pieces of human shit , they dont even feel guilty for bullying literal kids. Then they go shit on us blackpillers and say we only care about looks and our mindset is unhealthy blablbla your making fun of people. while they bully some poor kid cause his eyes are too close together and his nose is too big and then when he kills himself they larp empathy.

 

[DeadOnArrivalCel]

Throw shit and jizz at these maggots

 

[St.Greypiller]

Throw shit and jizz at these maggots

i dont understand how children could be so cruel

 

[Aventador]

You didn't deserve it, and it wasnt your fault. Im glad you are still with us.

 

[St.Greypiller]

You didn't deserve it, and it wasnt your fault. Im glad you are still with us.

its honestly quite sad , from even when i was little i was treated inferior . Im a kind soul trapped in a subhuman disgusting body with no use and a brain which is capable of nothing , thanks for the kind words

 

[Rapistcel]

normies are cruel pieces of shit , i used to jestermaxx when i was very young because i thought i wasnt good enough and thats why they were poking fun at me. Although Im still somewhat of a jester online i just do it out of boredom to ease the melancholy abit

As an ugly guy, people don't laugh with you, they laugh at you

 

[Spiteful Mutant]

pieces of human shit , they dont even feel guilty for bullying literal kids. Then they go shit on us blackpillers and say we only care about looks and our mindset is unhealthy blablbla your making fun of people. while they bully some poor kid cause his eyes are too close together and his nose is too big and then when he kills himself they larp empathy.

they can only be arsed enough to pretend to even give a shit until it's too late jfl. these people are evil.

 

[St.Greypiller]

As an ugly guy, people don't laugh with you, they laugh at you

i know man , i used to jestermaxx alot cause i wanted to be accepted as a young chap. when i got older and wiser i realised how stupid it was truly.

 

[Aventador]

its honestly quite sad , from even when i was little i was treated inferior . Im a kind soul trapped in a subhuman disgusting body with no use and a brain which is capable of nothing , thanks for the kind words

I dont believe you are subhuman, you sound pretty human to me brocel.

The world is evil, its not our fault we are all broken in some way.

If you can write, you can do something with your brain. Besides, survival is winning - everything else is bullshit. So youre doing great.

 

[St.Greypiller]

they can only be arsed enough to pretend to even give a shit until it's too late jfl. these people are evil.

i saw this one video about a young boy who killed himself due to being mocked for his looks , guess who the normies blamed in the comment section? "MUh BLackpILLLERS" ofcourse

 

[Spiteful Mutant]

i know man , i used to jestermaxx alot cause i wanted to be accepted as a young chap. when i got older and wiser i realised how stupid it was truly.

i saw this one video about a young boy who killed himself due to being mocked for his looks , guess who the normies blamed in the comment section? "MUh BLackpILLLERS" ofcourse

same i was too retarded as a kid to know niggas were laughing at my expense and kept me around only to make themselves look better by comparison. niggernormies are incapable of taking accountability for their actions. retards think its the bp when this is something i remember hearing about every now and again even prior to bps proliferation tbh.

 

[St.Greypiller]

I dont believe you are subhuman, you sound pretty human to me brocel.

The world is evil, its not our fault we are all broken in some way.

If you can write, you can do something with your brain. Besides, survival is winning - everything else is bullshit. So youre doing great.

im a good soul trapped in a horrible disfigured body.

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

I'm sorry, man. No child should go through that; this world is a cruel, wretched, and utterly despicable place.

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

i saw this one video about a young boy who killed himself due to being mocked for his looks , guess who the normies blamed in the comment section? "MUh BLackpILLLERS" ofcourse

Of course. Instead of blaming the actual issue, they blame the people who are pointing out the issue

 

[St.Greypiller]

I'm sorry, man. No child should go through that; this world is a cruel, wretched, and utterly despicable place.

too many horrible normies being dickheads

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

too many horrible normies being dickheads

The most vile part is that we suffer while they get to live normal lives.

 

[St.Greypiller]

Of course. Instead of blaming the actual issue, they blame the people who are pointing out the issue

projection 101 saar , normies cant be converted their mindsets are fixed

 

[St.Greypiller]

The most vile part is that we suffer while they get to live normal lives.

cant have winners (them) without losers (us)

 

[FKP]

Ah? Have you thought about working on your PERSONALITY, incel?

 

[St.Greypiller]

Ah? Have you thought about working on your PERSONALITY, incel?

of course sweety i totally forgot about personality! silly inkwell me

 

[zd60]

quite relatable, used to get bullied all the time in school for my apperance and other nonsense 24/7, was a endless cycle of torture, a complete clown world we live in

 

[Barlog]

Im glad you survived

 

[shitskinmogger88]

brootal, i can somewhat relate. I got bullied hard because of my height and autism and my parents didnt care

Same