13 was when I started seeing a lot of people my age getting into relationships and I understood this is something I won’t get to experience. I had many crushes over the years but that’s all they were - crushes. My brain was protecting me by not allowing me to speak to them, these days I was getting sent to school with no shower, couldn’t brush teeth because there was never toothpaste in the house so it was probably for the better. I can count the amount of times I talked to a girl on 1 hand during my 5 years of secondary. I knew my fate from young
