I was never destined to be a true man since the moment I was born. In my nature I couldn't help but always be a miserable beta; I didn't want to, but my body acts on its own. I remember fighting with other kids in kindergarden (to play), but I always lost, I had the drive to be powerful, I wanted to be powerful, I wanted to feel the strongest, the best; but instead I got owned. Of course my beta nature made me unable to stand up to bullies and bullies smelled my weakness one mile away. If I was an ogrecel this wouldn't have happened, females of course were not only disgusted by my looks, but also disrespected me vocally. I always tought it was my fault, it made me hopeful; because I tought I could have been like Walter White and have my Heisenberg phase, but no Heisenberg for my frame, what motivated Walter was confronting his mortality; for me it should have been the blackpill, but it never happened. I was and still am unable to be a man despite really wanting to; but nature betrays me. When I enter a room, I have the weak aura; it didn't matter whether I tried acting confident (only earned ridicule, your confidence is your frame and height) somehow people have a radar to spot beta nature, you can try faking it all you want, people will spot it and mock you. Ah well, the good side is... it doesn't matter, now that I know there is nothing to do about it, I can be free and focus on copes and comfort.
