I wanted to be the hero of the movie, to feel loved and accepted and to love people in return. I wanted to be on the side of the light. I wanted to live in harmony with all human beings but society turned me into a villain.
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Those are flowery words, but its not so easy to be a "hero".
The villain, for example, the real ones you know... They don't negotiate with the other side. The career criminals-- the serial killers, the rapists, the gangsters-- there's no whiney desire to be the hero living within these savage psychopaths.
They live fully committed lives of absolute dysfunction and villainy. They sell crack cocaine to desperate single mothers, they get off violently to rape and degradation, they load themselves up on illicit substances, and they all around simply don't give a f*ck. They commit fully to these alternative lifestyles of "kill or be killed". They're not sitting around clinging desperately to a nine to five. They have no problem ending up on the streets or in prison. They live every day as though they have nothing to lose. And they go through incredibly fucked up, traumatizing shit, and they just keep on going. They are ambitious as all hell, but in the wrong direction.
The real hero is not some buddy cop prick or some firefighting pensioner. You have to be different. You have to be willing to counteract that villainous insanity with a heroic counterfactual.
You are not a villain man. You wouldn't be posting that shit if you were. But you're not a hero either. At the moment you're more like a "lame criminal". That's what the average person is. The average person who looks the other way when a child is being fondled or trafficked. The average person who is happy to work slavishly for an abusive sociopath, simply because they "need the money". The average person who retains delusions of having what it takes to be the "heroic loving" one.
Its not so easy those words, "loving hero".
You have to be willing to make yourself bullet proof.
