Venting I want to kill myself so badly!!!

[dead.ahead]

I don’t want to suffer the life of an incel anymore! My life of a short, ugly, subhuman male is too much for me. I feel inferior to others, people mock me behind my back, and my attempts at creating relationships and fostering mutual respect have resulted in my mockery. I’ve went to college again after dropping it three times the past year and despite depression destroying my mind, managed to finish my assignments and get friends with “””kind””” people of my group. I recently found out that they’ve been mocking me behind my back, teasing me, even recording me at times, all because of my height and face (truecel). I thought my attempts at fitting in, making sure I’m not cocky or pretentious, but not depressive or brooding either worked - they didn’t. And the worst part is, the three chicks in my group were on it. I began suspecting something since last week because they became oddly talkative with me - turns out they were literally mocking me in my face. Some of the red-flag questions they asked me:

- Are you really 5’2?
- Did you lie about having a gf/you’re too ugly to have a gf (not said literally, but heavily hinted at.).

I had to lie about having one past relationship because, for some reason, normies love bringing up their past relationship with women. All the time. I guess it’s their way to suss out freaks like me. And my excuse, looks like, isn’t/wasn’t bought by them anymore. I guess it was ridiculous of me to think that I could fit in among normal people. I deserve this for being a subhuman, hoping my life could be more than meaningless suffering and waiting until I brave myself up to blowing off my head.

I feel sick. Why! Why does this happen to me? Why does it always have to fucking happen? What the fuck did I do to deserve this treatment? I’ve done nothing that would warrant this sort of treatment, and I even helped one of those snakes with his math issues, something I regret so badly now. It’s ridiculous. Why?!! I want to die so badly. I don’t think I can keep going anymore. I want this hell to end. I don’t care about women or fitting in anymore. I just don’t want to go there, sit with them and listen as they mock me behind my back, with those bitches gleefully pouring gasoline onto the flaming pit of shit that is my existence. I just want to drop fucking dead. Have some respite, finally. I didn’t ask to be born.

 

[Darth Aries]

Stay alive out of spite.

 

[AutistSupremacist]

I want to die too, but I at least want to lose my khhdtv before heading out

 

[Stupid Clown]

They deserve to die

 

[Orzmund]

The sickness you feel is something very close to my essential thoughts and feelings. Everyone I once knew lost themselves in pursuit of lofty, sensational, superficial, and ephemeral goals that have no genuine impact on where they were going in life. In the process, I fell out their graces and entered a long peroid of solitude that has yet to end. The malicious gossip and ridicule is especially relatable to me, everyone loves drama and controversy so they seek to proliferate and exaggerate it for entertainment.

You seem like someone who agrees with the wisdom of Silenus, it's up to you how you put the sentiment of life-negation to practice.

 

[SlayerSlayer]

you need to hurt someone in order to feel alive

 

[Qizarate]

I never lie about my situation, say I'm KHHV, it won't stop the mockery but it reduce it with pity

 

[UglyVirgin]

Don’t kill yourself nigga don’t let the Jews win

 

[kay']

5’2

Its over

 

[BrazilianTrvecel]

youre my friend dont kill yourself brother

 

[ldargoblin]

I recently found out that they’ve been mocking me behind my back, teasing me, even recording me at times, all because of my height and face

 

[Lazyandtalentless]

youre my friend dont kill yourself brother

 

[Orzmund]

Why are you in college?

 

[VideoGameCoper]

I want to die too, but I at least want to lose my khhdtv before heading out

Escorts are an option then

 

[user]

I feel sick. Why! Why does this happen to me? Why does it always have to fucking happen? What the fuck did I do to deserve this treatment?

Has to happen to someone, no?

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

Relatable

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

This story fills me with rage, they deserve the worst kind of death.

 

[KinkyKanga]

Stay alive out of spite.

 

[Pesttanz]

Go ER first in gta online.

 

[BlackShadowxxz]

I don’t want to suffer the life of an incel anymore! My life of a short, ugly, subhuman male is too much for me. I feel inferior to others, people mock me behind my back, and my attempts at creating relationships and fostering mutual respect have resulted in my mockery. I’ve went to college again after dropping it three times the past year and despite depression destroying my mind, managed to finish my assignments and get friends with “””kind””” people of my group. I recently found out that they’ve been mocking me behind my back, teasing me, even recording me at times, all because of my height and face (truecel). I thought my attempts at fitting in, making sure I’m not cocky or pretentious, but not depressive or brooding either worked - they didn’t. And the worst part is, the three chicks in my group were on it. I began suspecting something since last week because they became oddly talkative with me - turns out they were literally mocking me in my face. Some of the red-flag questions they asked me:

- Are you really 5’2?
- Did you lie about having a gf/you’re too ugly to have a gf (not said literally, but heavily hinted at.).

I had to lie about having one past relationship because, for some reason, normies love bringing up their past relationship with women. All the time. I guess it’s their way to suss out freaks like me. And my excuse, looks like, isn’t/wasn’t bought by them anymore. I guess it was ridiculous of me to think that I could fit in among normal people. I deserve this for being a subhuman, hoping my life could be more than meaningless suffering and waiting until I brave myself up to blowing off my head.

I feel sick. Why! Why does this happen to me? Why does it always have to fucking happen? What the fuck did I do to deserve this treatment? I’ve done nothing that would warrant this sort of treatment, and I even helped one of those snakes with his math issues, something I regret so badly now. It’s ridiculous. Why?!! I want to die so badly. I don’t think I can keep going anymore. I want this hell to end. I don’t care about women or fitting in anymore. I just don’t want to go there, sit with them and listen as they mock me behind my back, with those bitches gleefully pouring gasoline onto the flaming pit of shit that is my existence. I just want to drop fucking dead. Have some respite, finally. I didn’t ask to be born.

Listen man, you’re doing great. Despite your depression you went back to college and persevered. You even tried making friends and improve yourself. Now, these people are just simply put bad people. Don’t let their shitty personalities stunt your growth as a person. You’ve done good and you still have much room for growth. Don’t recede into hatred and self loathing. Get into therapy, try antidepressants and cut out those friends from your life’s and try making new ones. You’ll find a good friend group eventually, I believe in you. You can find a relationship, but only if you don’t let this one setback affect the growth you’ve made.

Also, stand up to yourself more, I don’t mean like yelling or throwing a fit. But check people, if they say something pretentious or try to gaslight you and make you feel small, point that out and say “I don’t like when you say (insert comment) or how you behave this way”. Have a clear boundary and their responds is not something you have to worry about. Either they respect that and stop or they don’t. And if they can’t respect your boundaries then stop hanging out with them. You can do this, I believe in you!!

 

[Doesitmatter?]

you need to hurt someone in order to feel alive

 

[God's Lonely Man]

Isolate yourself and don't bother interacting with normie filth.
You will nevER fit in with normies.

 

[CuntHater]

I don’t want to suffer the life of an incel anymore! My life of a short, ugly, subhuman male is too much for me. I feel inferior to others, people mock me behind my back, and my attempts at creating relationships and fostering mutual respect have resulted in my mockery. I’ve went to college again after dropping it three times the past year and despite depression destroying my mind, managed to finish my assignments and get friends with “””kind””” people of my group. I recently found out that they’ve been mocking me behind my back, teasing me, even recording me at times, all because of my height and face (truecel). I thought my attempts at fitting in, making sure I’m not cocky or pretentious, but not depressive or brooding either worked - they didn’t. And the worst part is, the three chicks in my group were on it. I began suspecting something since last week because they became oddly talkative with me - turns out they were literally mocking me in my face. Some of the red-flag questions they asked me:

- Are you really 5’2?
- Did you lie about having a gf/you’re too ugly to have a gf (not said literally, but heavily hinted at.).

I had to lie about having one past relationship because, for some reason, normies love bringing up their past relationship with women. All the time. I guess it’s their way to suss out freaks like me. And my excuse, looks like, isn’t/wasn’t bought by them anymore. I guess it was ridiculous of me to think that I could fit in among normal people. I deserve this for being a subhuman, hoping my life could be more than meaningless suffering and waiting until I brave myself up to blowing off my head.

I feel sick. Why! Why does this happen to me? Why does it always have to fucking happen? What the fuck did I do to deserve this treatment? I’ve done nothing that would warrant this sort of treatment, and I even helped one of those snakes with his math issues, something I regret so badly now. It’s ridiculous. Why?!! I want to die so badly. I don’t think I can keep going anymore. I want this hell to end. I don’t care about women or fitting in anymore. I just don’t want to go there, sit with them and listen as they mock me behind my back, with those bitches gleefully pouring gasoline onto the flaming pit of shit that is my existence. I just want to drop fucking dead. Have some respite, finally. I didn’t ask to be born.

Don't do it, kill the ones who hurt you instead.

 

[pozz]

join the marines and forget.

 

[TheRotKing]

join the marines and forget.

Good day Officer!
How is the weather in Tel Aviv?

 

[Arook]

you need to hurt someone in order to feel alive

 

[dead.ahead]

I’ve drunk myself to unconsciousness and woke up with a noose tied to my chandelier. My parents saw it and freaked out. They threatened to put me in a shrink if I don’t get my shit together. I can’t tell whether they were malicious or not anymore. To me, everyone is trying to hurt me, but I think my mother cried. I don’t know what to do with myself anymore. I’m a human failure.

 

[suicidecase]

Sorry mate. Life is brutal.

I'd suggest SEAmaxxing. The average male height in the Philippines is around 5'4, so you wouldn't be that short. And, if you're white, you'd be valued.

I want to kill myself as well. But it's just irrational.

 

[aggelaras]

You Are Lucky They Bother At Least To Mock You, Girls Are Just Too Terrified To Talk To Me And Treat Me Like A Hobo

 

[Retraux]

At the very least make your suicide traumatizing for someone else. Something like blowing your head apart with a a shotgun in a public place.

 

[pozz]

I’ve drunk myself to unconsciousness and woke up with a noose tied to my chandelier. My parents saw it and freaked out. They threatened to put me in a shrink if I don’t get my shit together. I can’t tell whether they were malicious or not anymore. To me, everyone is trying to hurt me, but I think my mother cried. I don’t know what to do with myself anymore. I’m a human failure.

i think they just dont want you to do that to them. talk with your parents is all i can say.

 

[Roastie Crusher]

dnr

 

[GeneticDysfunction]

I don’t want to suffer the life of an incel anymore! My life of a short, ugly, subhuman male is too much for me. I feel inferior to others, people mock me behind my back, and my attempts at creating relationships and fostering mutual respect have resulted in my mockery. I’ve went to college again after dropping it three times the past year and despite depression destroying my mind, managed to finish my assignments and get friends with “””kind””” people of my group. I recently found out that they’ve been mocking me behind my back, teasing me, even recording me at times, all because of my height and face (truecel). I thought my attempts at fitting in, making sure I’m not cocky or pretentious, but not depressive or brooding either worked - they didn’t. And the worst part is, the three chicks in my group were on it. I began suspecting something since last week because they became oddly talkative with me - turns out they were literally mocking me in my face. Some of the red-flag questions they asked me:

- Are you really 5’2?
- Did you lie about having a gf/you’re too ugly to have a gf (not said literally, but heavily hinted at.).

I had to lie about having one past relationship because, for some reason, normies love bringing up their past relationship with women. All the time. I guess it’s their way to suss out freaks like me. And my excuse, looks like, isn’t/wasn’t bought by them anymore. I guess it was ridiculous of me to think that I could fit in among normal people. I deserve this for being a subhuman, hoping my life could be more than meaningless suffering and waiting until I brave myself up to blowing off my head.

I feel sick. Why! Why does this happen to me? Why does it always have to fucking happen? What the fuck did I do to deserve this treatment? I’ve done nothing that would warrant this sort of treatment, and I even helped one of those snakes with his math issues, something I regret so badly now. It’s ridiculous. Why?!! I want to die so badly. I don’t think I can keep going anymore. I want this hell to end. I don’t care about women or fitting in anymore. I just don’t want to go there, sit with them and listen as they mock me behind my back, with those bitches gleefully pouring gasoline onto the flaming pit of shit that is my existence. I just want to drop fucking dead. Have some respite, finally. I didn’t ask to be born.

Do drugs and ignore society.

 

[Myst]

 

[CuntHater]

I’ve drunk myself to unconsciousness and woke up with a noose tied to my chandelier. My parents saw it and freaked out. They threatened to put me in a shrink if I don’t get my shit together. I can’t tell whether they were malicious or not anymore. To me, everyone is trying to hurt me, but I think my mother cried. I don’t know what to do with myself anymore. I’m a human failure.

Society failed you brother, you didn't fail anyone

 

[Grodd]

They deserve to die

 

[sadlife99]

I’ve drunk myself to unconsciousness and woke up with a noose tied to my chandelier. My parents saw it and freaked out. They threatened to put me in a shrink if I don’t get my shit together. I can’t tell whether they were malicious or not anymore. To me, everyone is trying to hurt me, but I think my mother cried. I don’t know what to do with myself anymore. I’m a human failure.

What makes you a truecel man? Is it something you can hardmaxx out of? Maybe hardmaxx+JBW could save you?