Well meaning bluepillers tell me things like "just be yourself" or "you are valid the way you are" but that's clearly bullshit, I know they don't have my best interest at heart when they say that. This is just a nice way of hoping you will fuck off, similar to "you should talk to a therapist" is a way of telling someone to fuck off.
I have so many things working against me: ethniccel, grew up in a cult and isolated from people, foster home, past homelessness, no high earning career, short height, trashy background, no solid friend group as it was mostly druggies and personality disorders (that was what I settled for in the past), no family members because they also had trauma, mental disorders, suicides, and their own issues.
I don't want to accept my lot in life. I want to do whatever it takes to get out of it. I don't want to kill myself either. Being alive is the greatest virtue.
You have to survive and thrive, no matter what. No matter what you have to do. Lie. Cheat. Steal. Just don't lay down and die. Only chads and normies talk about "integrity" and "doing the right thing" because the system is already working in their favor. It's easy to be a rule follower when you have nothing to worry about. Do whatever it takes.
My plans to ascend for 2024:
1. Gymmax, it's better to be short and fit rather than short and skinnyfat. Though both are bad. Lower my body fat percentage to compensate for weak jawline because my face doesn't carry any extra fat very well. I will never be a girl's wet dream or be viewed as respectable due to height alone but it's better than nothing. I want to at least get to a level where I won't be pepper sprayed for saying hi to a girl or having cops called on me just for breathing
2. Plastic surgery, may or may not be worth it. My problem is my jawline, I already put orthodontics on payment plan, I was discouraged from going for double jaw surgery. It helps a little but it's not enough.
3. Lie about my qualifications and health issues to get my dream job, though I am sure there are better candidates for the job, but this is all a game anyway
4. Go back to school, the master's degree probably won't help me get a better job in itself but the master's alone is a status symbol for normies and helps hide my trashy background
5. Hobbymax and skillmax by working on my art more. Hopefully I have a better life than being a shut in like kentaro miura but probably not
I already lie, lie, lie and found that it helps especially because nobody can fact check and prove otherwise anyway. I spent the holidays alone but I tell my coworkers about spending time with my nonexistant friends or spending time with family and playing with my cute little nephews and nieces. It makes me look like I am not an isolated suspicious fuckup, and that yes I am loved and cherished and have an enviable or at least normie life.
I have so many things working against me: ethniccel, grew up in a cult and isolated from people, foster home, past homelessness, no high earning career, short height, trashy background, no solid friend group as it was mostly druggies and personality disorders (that was what I settled for in the past), no family members because they also had trauma, mental disorders, suicides, and their own issues.
I don't want to accept my lot in life. I want to do whatever it takes to get out of it. I don't want to kill myself either. Being alive is the greatest virtue.
You have to survive and thrive, no matter what. No matter what you have to do. Lie. Cheat. Steal. Just don't lay down and die. Only chads and normies talk about "integrity" and "doing the right thing" because the system is already working in their favor. It's easy to be a rule follower when you have nothing to worry about. Do whatever it takes.
My plans to ascend for 2024:
1. Gymmax, it's better to be short and fit rather than short and skinnyfat. Though both are bad. Lower my body fat percentage to compensate for weak jawline because my face doesn't carry any extra fat very well. I will never be a girl's wet dream or be viewed as respectable due to height alone but it's better than nothing. I want to at least get to a level where I won't be pepper sprayed for saying hi to a girl or having cops called on me just for breathing
2. Plastic surgery, may or may not be worth it. My problem is my jawline, I already put orthodontics on payment plan, I was discouraged from going for double jaw surgery. It helps a little but it's not enough.
3. Lie about my qualifications and health issues to get my dream job, though I am sure there are better candidates for the job, but this is all a game anyway
4. Go back to school, the master's degree probably won't help me get a better job in itself but the master's alone is a status symbol for normies and helps hide my trashy background
5. Hobbymax and skillmax by working on my art more. Hopefully I have a better life than being a shut in like kentaro miura but probably not
I already lie, lie, lie and found that it helps especially because nobody can fact check and prove otherwise anyway. I spent the holidays alone but I tell my coworkers about spending time with my nonexistant friends or spending time with family and playing with my cute little nephews and nieces. It makes me look like I am not an isolated suspicious fuckup, and that yes I am loved and cherished and have an enviable or at least normie life.
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