IDK man, i feel like, i dont have an identity. I feel like an empty shell. Like, i am only Emptiness. I hear people with NPD have this exact same feeling. And i have had this feeling all my life. I also have all the other symptoms of NPD so i now know beyond a shadow of a doubt i am one.
Do any of you guys feel like this? Do you feel like no one loves you? Like, if someone tells you they like you/love you, you become enraged?
I hear a lot of incels say they feel like everyone wants them to DIE, but is that objectively True? My mom just told me today that not everyone wants me to die and that some people even want to help me and that some people like me. But i dont know, is that true?
Fuck man, i may be the most delusional person in the world. Or maybe i am right? IDk, just wanted to share this, i am dying to get some answers to my life, cuz shit has been going downhill for a LONG time now.
In school, i was always the guy who would draw people dying and i would draw blood and stuff, while all my other class members would draw puppies and rainbows. I would also randomly go into feats of rage and start swearing out loud in my class. I was only 6 years old at the time. And so even back THEN no one seemed to like me. But i thought that they did like me. But now i see i have been living in a delusional reality all my life.
No one ever fucking loved me. This shit is to fucking traumatizing i dont even know how to live with myself anymore. My mentor told me that no matter how bad my thoughts get, i should not, under ANY circumstances, KILL myself. But, the thing is, that every time i leave my house, people can SEE my subhumanity and my delusions. all this time they could see it. So naturally, they will use me and make fun of me, and shit.
Am i the only one who feels like this? am i delusional to the maxx?
Do any of you guys feel like this? Do you feel like no one loves you? Like, if someone tells you they like you/love you, you become enraged?
I hear a lot of incels say they feel like everyone wants them to DIE, but is that objectively True? My mom just told me today that not everyone wants me to die and that some people even want to help me and that some people like me. But i dont know, is that true?
Fuck man, i may be the most delusional person in the world. Or maybe i am right? IDk, just wanted to share this, i am dying to get some answers to my life, cuz shit has been going downhill for a LONG time now.
In school, i was always the guy who would draw people dying and i would draw blood and stuff, while all my other class members would draw puppies and rainbows. I would also randomly go into feats of rage and start swearing out loud in my class. I was only 6 years old at the time. And so even back THEN no one seemed to like me. But i thought that they did like me. But now i see i have been living in a delusional reality all my life.
No one ever fucking loved me. This shit is to fucking traumatizing i dont even know how to live with myself anymore. My mentor told me that no matter how bad my thoughts get, i should not, under ANY circumstances, KILL myself. But, the thing is, that every time i leave my house, people can SEE my subhumanity and my delusions. all this time they could see it. So naturally, they will use me and make fun of me, and shit.
Am i the only one who feels like this? am i delusional to the maxx?
