SuicideFuel How unlovable someone could be

[ERVIAN]

I didn’t want to make this thread but I don’t really know where else to put these thoughts

I’ve skipped social gatherings and avoided going out because of the way I look

Whenever I see a group of people my age the first thing that comes to my mind is how they’re going to react to me I overthink every little thing and even when I do something completely normal I still feel like I did something wrong

I haven’t had a proper conversation with someone online for months and I think I just needed somewhere to express how I’ve been feeling

I thought staying away from everyone would make me feel better and give me peace but instead it only made me feel more lonely

I’ll never forget the amount of hate I got when I was only trying to be talkative nice and friendly I was even called ugly and unlovable by someone who used to be my friend

Like everyone else my age I wanted to have a group of people around me I wanted to feel included and make memories but somehow I ended up being the person left out I never tried to hurt anyone or disrespect anyone but I still ended up being treated that way

I stopped talking to girls because I was scared of bothering them or making them uncomfortable but then I would see other people say things just to get a reaction and still get attention and it made me question everything

And now this is me no friends no group chats no hangouts nothing People don’t even ask if I’m okay anymore

Most of my time is spent on forums hoping maybe something will change my life but honestly the results have been disappointing

I still wonder what really went wrong How did people who I didn’t even see as better than me end up being accepted loved and surrounded by people while I ended up feeling completely alone.

I never wanted anything special I just wanted to feel accepted and have people around me like everyone else

 

[LayDownAndKakarot]

Every normie is a filthy piece of shit and they only know cruelty. Sorry you’ve had it so rough

 

[ERVIAN]

Every normie is a filthy piece of shit and they only know cruelty. Sorry you’ve had it so rough

Seriously what am I even supposed to say? Some people do terrible things and still don’t get treated this way I don’t know what I did to deserve being put in a situation like this
Maybe God wanted to ruin my life like this

 

[LayDownAndKakarot]

Seriously what am I even supposed to say? Some people do terrible things and still don’t get treated this way I don’t know what I did to deserve being put in a situation like this
Maybe God wanted to ruin my life like this

Become just as cruel, and get in good physical shape. Not for the approval of foids and normies but so that you can be strong enough to defend yourself when your callousness pisses them off.

 

[ERVIAN]

Become just as cruel, and get in good physical shape. Not for the approval of foids and normies but so that you can be strong enough to defend yourself when your callousness pisses them off.

I’ll try to do what you said I need to become stronger and work on myself instead of staying stuck like this If not then all I can do is to kill myself