“Well, wasn't this nice? The perfect end to a perfect trip. If someone had told me six months ago that this was where my life was headed, I'd have ordered a double of what they were drinking, drunk it then blown my head off.” - max Payne
Yeah just like, six months of my life gone with nothing to show for. Like at all. I regret not trying to get my old job back in February when I moved back to my hometown. Am just a time waisting idiot.
In five and a half years I’ll be 30, I’ll be fucking 30 in less time then when covid happened.
Am a fucking Joke, I keep telling myself “how many more nights do you want to live like this?” It’s almost in a mocking way at this point
You know
View: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=VlRN_QMqNLQ&list=RDVlRN_QMqNLQ&start_radio=1&t=642s&pp=2AGCBZACAcoFD21heCBwYXluZSAzIG9zdKAHAQ%3D%3D&ra=m
I’ve been thinking about this while this part of the song plays in my head.
It’s fitting
It’s like am just fine being a fucking slave living like this, probably because I don’t know any different.
Like I literally don’t, so it’s impossible to imagine myself being “normal”
But yeah 6 months gone, my brother was right. I wasn’t going to do anything productive with my life when I moved back.
Am about to have no more money, a year ago I was just as miserable but atleast I had a fucking job. Now it’s just emptiness waiting for the next big disaster to strike in life.
Yeah just like, six months of my life gone with nothing to show for. Like at all. I regret not trying to get my old job back in February when I moved back to my hometown. Am just a time waisting idiot.
In five and a half years I’ll be 30, I’ll be fucking 30 in less time then when covid happened.
Am a fucking Joke, I keep telling myself “how many more nights do you want to live like this?” It’s almost in a mocking way at this point
You know
View: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=VlRN_QMqNLQ&list=RDVlRN_QMqNLQ&start_radio=1&t=642s&pp=2AGCBZACAcoFD21heCBwYXluZSAzIG9zdKAHAQ%3D%3D&ra=m
I’ve been thinking about this while this part of the song plays in my head.
It’s fitting
It’s like am just fine being a fucking slave living like this, probably because I don’t know any different.
Like I literally don’t, so it’s impossible to imagine myself being “normal”
But yeah 6 months gone, my brother was right. I wasn’t going to do anything productive with my life when I moved back.
Am about to have no more money, a year ago I was just as miserable but atleast I had a fucking job. Now it’s just emptiness waiting for the next big disaster to strike in life.
