I won't get into detail about my past but it caused hypervigilince that resulted in schizophrenia with symptoms as early as 15, diagnosed at 16.
Didn't use drugs much ever until I was 21. Got into methamphetamine with a soul crushing side effect of extreme libido boost. Did stim fapping a lot when I could find it.
Eventually couldn't find it. Switched to stim fapping with Bupropion or Wellbutrin, an amphetamine analogue. A lot of people don't respond with a buzz but I get a very powerful libido boost. For a while stim fapped with that.
Not into actual opioids but love Kratom esp. with it's effect of nullifying libido.
So I had a regiment of stim fapping to release all sexual energy & just be done with it. And kratom to lock down the dead libido so it doesn't come back at all.
Results are mixed. It worked for a while. I had very little interest at all in sex. But the libido comes back & the fact I have it at all can fling me into an extreme rage.
I'll keep this up. Only way to have peace in life
Didn't use drugs much ever until I was 21. Got into methamphetamine with a soul crushing side effect of extreme libido boost. Did stim fapping a lot when I could find it.
Eventually couldn't find it. Switched to stim fapping with Bupropion or Wellbutrin, an amphetamine analogue. A lot of people don't respond with a buzz but I get a very powerful libido boost. For a while stim fapped with that.
Not into actual opioids but love Kratom esp. with it's effect of nullifying libido.
So I had a regiment of stim fapping to release all sexual energy & just be done with it. And kratom to lock down the dead libido so it doesn't come back at all.
Results are mixed. It worked for a while. I had very little interest at all in sex. But the libido comes back & the fact I have it at all can fling me into an extreme rage.
I'll keep this up. Only way to have peace in life
