You are a fellow Aspie, yes? Then, you also have suffered because of the hole refusal to accept personality. They prefer personality only when "personality" is accompanied by good looks.
... I'll begin the story ...
Intellau_Celistic was anxious daily as he attended group therapy. He was unable to use the bathroom and could not look around the room since his anxiety meant he was afraid of being criticized for "staring" at other people present.
Shannon, however, was a bit different. Shannon was in group therapy for "depression" and "anxiety". She would come without her glasses on some days, and with them on others. Intellau wanted to comfort her, and so he offered tidbits of his childhood.
"My parents fought violently. I witnessed it many times"
"I'm here to reduce my anxiety"
Her attire shifted throughout the days and Shannon continued to wear many things, including a jacket:
One day, though, she wore a blue shirt that closely resembled a shirt worn by a young Latino:
She was wearing square glasses.
This was the last day before Shannon stopped attending group therapy. Intellau overheard the conversation between staff about Shannon, who enjoyed the company of the tall Italian male daily:
"I told her, 'Miss, we can't force someone to speak to your daughter!'"
"Well...she won't come."
"Then we'll have to discharge her"
Shortly after the group split, in which fifteen-year-old Intellau was left with the younger kids and twelve-year-old Shannon was placed with the older kids, Shannon returned to therapy, with the new group. As Intellau sat with new group mates Sarah, Joshua, Kajia, and Jacquis in the lobby, Shannon walked past with her new group. They were walking to the Wauwatosa bridge nearby.
Some time later...
December 2015, Intellau is walking with his mother when he notices Shannon wearing a ponytail. She is sitting in the lobby of the main hospital and waiting for her transportation to arrive.
She briefly looks at him with an apathetic expression. Intellau immediately recalls the several occasions in which he has mentioned to Mother about her preference for Caucasian males, by this point.
2016:
Intellau arrives at group therapy daily with his jacket. He wears it for comfort reasons.
And his scarf:
He overhears the group psychologist speak about Shannon:
"I think George has a crush on Shannon" - George is a fourteen-year-old autistic male.
"Shannon was flirting with Chris. I told those two to cut it out. She made a fake Facebook profile for him."
Intellau drops a pencil...
"Oh yeah, Intellau's medical records say he had a crush on her. We need to keep our voices down"
(Aide) "Why does he even want her? She already has a boyfriend."
Intellau's Commentary:
"Shannon is back out of the hospital again. Last time she was in there for about a week"
Intellau would sometimes see Shannon as he was leaving, given he was in the "Morning Group" and Shannon was in the "Afternoon Group".
It seems Shannon spoke of this pitiful Aspie to her devoted orbiter, Justus G:
Yes...I'd sit in the waiting room and solve "word search" puzzles while waiting to see my psychologist, an elderly White male. I was typically covered up like Gyro.
Intellau encounters Shannon at the local hospital for children:
More later.