Venting I understand what my problem is

[Pikacel]

Instead of gearing my entire life and social interactions around finding work, I ‘pretend’ everything is OK.

I ignore social interactions with family and acquaintances out of shame. I pretend to studycel instead of admitting to myself and family that I dropped out and need to work.

I cope with distractions to escape from the reality of being a lazy bum and the dread of getting my applications rejected

The only solution to this is be honest and do whatever it takes to work. But I still shoot myself in the foot and cope. Wtf

 

[Pikacel]

What’s worse is that I vent on forums. And act fine IRL

I should be crying like a baby to everyone I know about being unemployed and beg everyone to help me find work because I’m too useless to find one myself.

I should be applying to 50 jobs every day instead of being lazy and ‘relaxed’.

 

[Pikacel]

Where’s the honesty and desperation? Why can’t I just cry, whine and complain like a normal person. Why do I bottle it up and act ‘unbothered’

Did I fall for some alpha male redpill ‘stoicism’ BS? Even though I have a stutter and can’t hold eye contact?

 

[flute_snoop]

Being hard on yourself isn't the answer either. What sort of work are you applying for?