CursedShycel
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Normally, I'm too high inhib for cold approach. But I lurking this forum for a 2 months with a crippling depression. And that's makes me more brave to escaping inceldom. Today I decided to try cold approach so I took xanax and propranolol in morning for lowinhibmaxxing.
1-) At the university campus, I saw two girls sitting on a bench before lunch time, I said that my phone not with me and asked what time it is? (my phone was with me). I said I wanted to meet , they accepted with uncomfortable face, and I sat across from them. I talked for 10 minutes and they answered coldly every question I asked , it was very clear that they did not want me. both were frigit beckies and after a while I said goodbye and leave.
2-) In the lunch queue, I went to a girl I knew was from our class and said hello. We talked for a while when the queue continued, this time it went better. After we entered the dining hall, we sat together, but after a while, 3 of her friends came and cucked me. Suddenly I was completely outcast . They talked among themselves and I couldn't say a word the whole meal. I said goodbye after lunch and left the group. Also she was a high tier becky and probably had a boyfriend.
3-) I went to the hospital for medical practice in the afternoon. (I am 4th grade med student). I was the only one in our group who came to the practice, I could have signed the paper and left. However, there was a 6th grade intern girl there and I wanted to talk to her. The girl was surprisingly nice to me. She was a 4/10 petite becky with glasses and almost umcomfortably talkative. After talking for a while, they called her to get blood gas and she said to me, "Do you want to take it?" . I was in the 4th grade and had never took a blood gas before, but I said "yes" so I wouldn't look like a coward. It is difficult to get blood gas, you have to palpate the artery from patient's wrist and you have to shoot blindly with a needle. I got excited and failed on my first try, then she took my place and did it. I felt humiliated and terrible. I was about to leave with great disappointment but she smiled at me and said, "I failed my first try too." ngl I liked her, she's a sweet girl. I asked her phone number with a strange confidence, I said "Maybe I could ask you some questions about internship," . Her face was confused, but she gave me her phone number. I think she was just being polite. Maybe I'll text her, but I don't think I can get anything from her. It's definitely not flirting.
So at the end of the day I couldn't get anything. Another lonely friday night, another lonely weekend. I'm coping with alcohol rn.
1-) At the university campus, I saw two girls sitting on a bench before lunch time, I said that my phone not with me and asked what time it is? (my phone was with me). I said I wanted to meet , they accepted with uncomfortable face, and I sat across from them. I talked for 10 minutes and they answered coldly every question I asked , it was very clear that they did not want me. both were frigit beckies and after a while I said goodbye and leave.
2-) In the lunch queue, I went to a girl I knew was from our class and said hello. We talked for a while when the queue continued, this time it went better. After we entered the dining hall, we sat together, but after a while, 3 of her friends came and cucked me. Suddenly I was completely outcast . They talked among themselves and I couldn't say a word the whole meal. I said goodbye after lunch and left the group. Also she was a high tier becky and probably had a boyfriend.
3-) I went to the hospital for medical practice in the afternoon. (I am 4th grade med student). I was the only one in our group who came to the practice, I could have signed the paper and left. However, there was a 6th grade intern girl there and I wanted to talk to her. The girl was surprisingly nice to me. She was a 4/10 petite becky with glasses and almost umcomfortably talkative. After talking for a while, they called her to get blood gas and she said to me, "Do you want to take it?" . I was in the 4th grade and had never took a blood gas before, but I said "yes" so I wouldn't look like a coward. It is difficult to get blood gas, you have to palpate the artery from patient's wrist and you have to shoot blindly with a needle. I got excited and failed on my first try, then she took my place and did it. I felt humiliated and terrible. I was about to leave with great disappointment but she smiled at me and said, "I failed my first try too." ngl I liked her, she's a sweet girl. I asked her phone number with a strange confidence, I said "Maybe I could ask you some questions about internship," . Her face was confused, but she gave me her phone number. I think she was just being polite. Maybe I'll text her, but I don't think I can get anything from her. It's definitely not flirting.
So at the end of the day I couldn't get anything. Another lonely friday night, another lonely weekend. I'm coping with alcohol rn.
