Venting i think im going insane

[PPEcel]

whenever i start thinking

I yell "stop" out loud to stop myself from thinking

I keep having these super intrusive thoughts and flashbacks of embarrassing moments

and im alone in my home so no one can hear me yell stop to myself

like if i died now no one would realize for like two months

this covid isolation thing is driving me nuts man i havent talked to anyone IRL in three months except for hookers who barely speak english and food delivery people and the mailman

 

[Marquis de Sade]

Aye its fuckin shite. We're all under house arrest. If the government wasn't so incompetent we could have been like New Zealand and Australia and opened things up. Instead we're stuck in this little cold plague island with nowhere to go and nothing to do.

 

[Deleted member 20790]

I'm so mentally downtrodden I actually beat myself up (figuratively) for shit I didn't even do, Like I have those horrible intrusive thoughts about how something COULD have been embarrassing.

My self esteem is below rock bottom, I hate myself for things I didn't even do, I don't even know how to fix this. I'm in disrepair.

And apparently it's all my fault because I have a nasty "personality" when I can't even bring myself to start conversations with people irl because they either shun me or act like I'm some burden on them for even being around them.

 

[Caesercel]

Don't get too isolated or you will get depressed.

 

[PPEcel]

i just keep thinking about all my cringe moments

 

[RollD20]

this covid isolation thing is driving me nuts man i havent talked to anyone IRL in three months except for hookers who barely speak english and food delivery people and the mailman

This was me before lockdowns, minus the hookers.

 

[Linesnap99]

distract yourself.

 

[Hate_my_life]

Play Cyberpunk

 

[ReturnOfSaddam]

Just get drunk it'll make it go away

 

[Deleted member 17419]

Imagine going "insane" from not interacting with normoids, and that's with regularly fucking whores.

 

[Pain And Hatred]

this covid isolation thing is beautiful, i have extra excuses not to interact with normies irl


out of sight, out of mind, it was more annoying when i had to interact with normies. now i don't even have new embarrassing moments

Exactly this.

 

[Dr. Dicklet]

Could be psychosis

 

[GermaniaIncelia]

whenever i start thinking

I yell "stop" out loud to stop myself from thinking

I keep having these super intrusive thoughts and flashbacks of embarrassing moments

and im alone in my home so no one can hear me yell stop to myself

like if i died now no one would realize for like two months

this covid isolation thing is driving me nuts man i havent talked to anyone IRL in three months except for hookers who barely speak english and food delivery people and the mailman

 

[SlayerSlayer]

whenever i start thinking

I yell "stop" out loud to stop myself from thinking

I keep having these super intrusive thoughts and flashbacks of embarrassing moments

and im alone in my home so no one can hear me yell stop to myself

like if i died now no one would realize for like two months

this covid isolation thing is driving me nuts man i havent talked to anyone IRL in three months except for hookers who barely speak english and food delivery people and the mailman

The fuck, my entire life has been like this minus the hookers, boarding schools, and jetsetting escortcel

 

[BlkPillPres]

whenever i start thinking

I yell "stop" out loud to stop myself from thinking

I keep having these super intrusive thoughts and flashbacks of embarrassing moments

Same, and yeah, this didn't just start for me, its been like this for years (the entire COVID ordeal has not made a difference in my life tbh, nothing has really changed), you just have to keep your mind busy with tasks and entertainment

For me its more of a "wait no" than a "stop" though lol

 

[Hell]

It might have to do with the brainwashing the CCP did on you when they decided to infiltrate western incel circles

 

[BlkPillPres]

i just keep thinking about all my cringe moments

Ironically I think this shit won't matter to me anymore when I'm rich and I can escortcel, so I have to ask why does your mind still have these cringe flashbacks when you are already at that stage in life, is there something else you want in life that is your "one true goal"?

I'm pretty sure all my "cringebacks" will stop when I've achieved the goal of wealthmaxxing, my cringe is psychologically tied to my life of failure and yearning, everytime it happens I just think "one day none of this will matter"

 

[sadboyo123]

Are you on any medication?

 

[PPEcel]

Same, and yeah, this didn't just start for me, its been like this for years (the entire COVID ordeal has not made a difference in my life tbh, nothing has really changed), you just have to keep your mind busy with tasks and entertainment

For me its more of a "wait no" than a "stop" though lol

Ironically I think this shit won't matter to me anymore when I'm rich and I can escortcel, so I have to ask why does your mind still have these cringe flashbacks when you are already at that stage in life, is there something else you want in life that is your "one true goal"?

I'm pretty sure all my "cringebacks" will stop when I've achieved the goal of wealthmaxxing, my cringe is psychologically tied to my life of failure and yearning, everytime it happens I just think "one day none of this will matter"

yeah you're right

it's about having absolutely nothing to do

i mean i do have stuff to do it's just that usually have less free time than i do now and it's driving me nuts

i mean cringebacks are going to exist no matter what, as long as your mind keeps wandering it's going to happen, whether you end up achieving your goals or not

Are you on any medication?

not in the past year

 

[JestER]

Imagine going "insane" from not interacting with normoids, and that's with regularly fucking whores.

 

[Hyperwristcel]

whenever i start thinking

I yell "stop" out loud to stop myself from thinking

I keep having these super intrusive thoughts and flashbacks of embarrassing moments

and im alone in my home so no one can hear me yell stop to myself

like if i died now no one would realize for like two months

this covid isolation thing is driving me nuts man i havent talked to anyone IRL in three months except for hookers who barely speak english and food delivery people and the mailman

Yesterday I started talking to myself, decided to stop, just to start talking to myself again without even noticing it.

When I'm in the kitchen, I act like I'm Gordon Ramsay or some other TV chef and talk to the "camera" while preparing my food.

The whole house is empty, of course.

I have met one friend in person since 2019.

No one writes to me anymore, all my friends have abandoned me on social media, except for two of them.

During the day, I only talk to my father, who's currently asleep because my sleeping cycle is so fucked that I go to bed when others (wagies) wake up.

I've been a NEET for over 5 years now.

I usually listen to progressive house mixes for 3-5 hours straight while masturbating or playing video games.

 

[your personality]

not in the past year

Brutal pastmedicationspill.

 

[PPEcel]

Yesterday I started talking to myself, decided to stop, just to start talking to myself again without even noticing it.

When I'm in the kitchen, I act like I'm Gordon Ramsay or some other TV chef and talk to the "camera" while preparing my food.

The whole house is empty, of course.

I have met one friend in person since 2019.

No one writes to me anymore, all my friends have abandoned me on social media, except for two of them.

During the day, I only talk to my father, who's currently asleep because my sleeping cycle is so fucked that I go to bed when others (wagies) wake up.

I've been a NEET for over 5 years now.

I usually listen to progressive house mixes for 3-5 hours straight while masturbating or playing video games.

when im in the kitchen i watch c-span

if its on

politics is fun

 

[waste matter]

I have this problem too but I am quite used to it tbh, It also feels good to have imaginary friend tbh.

 

[ionlycopenow]

Age old saying is, if you know something's wrong, you're not going crazy.

rotting with nothing to do and nobody to interact withis a breeding ground for neuroticisicism. @Gymcelled made a high iq post about how soldiatey confinement literally makes people go crazy

Also intrusive thoughts are a common OCD symptom, I have that too.

 

[BlkPillPres]

i mean cringebacks are going to exist no matter what, as long as your mind keeps wandering it's going to happen, whether you end up achieving your goals or not

I don't believe that's the case for me, my cringebacks revolve around all my failings, if I find success, in my book, it will basically overwrite my entire past (well mentally) and none of that shit will matter to me anymore

When I'm finished wealthmaxxing, I plan on changing my name, leaving my country and my family, friends, etc behind to start a new life, and I am never going to return nor contact anyone again, I am leaving everything behind to get a fresh new start

I don't think anything in past past is going to matter to me at that point, the cringe only exists because I'm "still in this life"

It may actually be the same for you, you have the resources to do what you want, but at the end of the day you wake up everyday AS YOU

You probably still get mocked and/or annoyed by your family members and their prying questions about your life

You probably still feel bad when you see how the lives of past/current friends/family are progressing in "normie pursuits" (engagements, weddings, children, etc)

Everything about your existence still reminds you of all of your failings, you are still stuck in "your life" regardless of the resources you have, and that's the problem

What I plan on doing is changing my life completely, a complete reset, nobody will know who I am and over time I won't remember much of anything that annoyed me in the past that made me cringe, and in a few months (not even a year) of living a life like that, all of the memories that made me cringe would be a blur and would begin to be replaced by enjoyable memories that make me smile



When I speak to most incels I realize that their attachments to their "current lives" (which they claim to hate) is ironically very strong, not one is willing to "leave everything behind"

I've never been an emotional person to begin with, and years of being an incel has made me even colder

I have no attachments to anything, friends, family, nothing, not even my name, none of that matters anymore, all that matters to me is escaping a shitty existence and moving towards and enjoyable one, I won't miss anyone or anything, because all of these things are connected to a life I hate, leaving these "relationships" behind won't be hard for me at all, my most enjoyable moments were when I was alone by myself, playing a video game or in my imagination

The happiest I ever am, is when I'm imagining my life after this one, when I've escaped the one I'm in now

 

[starcrapoo]

whenever i start thinking

I yell "stop" out loud to stop myself from thinking

I keep having these super intrusive thoughts and flashbacks of embarrassing moments

and im alone in my home so no one can hear me yell stop to myself

like if i died now no one would realize for like two months

this covid isolation thing is driving me nuts man i havent talked to anyone IRL in three months except for hookers who barely speak english and food delivery people and the mailman

You are experiencing tourettes induced by mild to severe split-personality disorder.

I do exactly the same. I just yell out at random when I remember cringey moments from my past. I realize those awful memories will stay with me forever.

Your personality is a bit different now from when those cringey moments occurred and you yell out uncontrollably when you remember those moments because your old personality is taking over your consciousness when you don't want it to.

 

[Deleted member 22572]

Is the flashbacks thing common? I thought it was rare.

I do it when I think back to bullying stuff tho as well as cringe moments. Instead of saying a word tho I usually just make a random noise like "mhm" or in some cases I'll blurt out "fuck" or somethn like dat. It happens the most when I'm in bed

You are experiencing tourettes induced by mild to severe split-personality disorder.

I do exactly the same. I just yell out at random when I remember cringey moments from my past. I realize those awful memories will stay with me forever.

Your personality is a bit different now from when those cringey moments occurred and you yell out uncontrollably when you remember those moments because your old personality is taking over your consciousness when you don't want it to.

Nah

 

[Sportbro]

Play Cyberpunk

cant run it

 

[Deleted member 22572]

When I'm in the kitchen, I act like I'm Gordon Ramsay or some other TV chef and talk to the "camera" while preparing my food.

Jfl I do stuff like that too. When I'm doing the dishes I'll pretend I'm being interviewed and sometimes when I pay fifa I'll narrate over it in my head like I'm a youtuber

 

[Hyperwristcel]

Jfl I do stuff like that too. When I'm doing the dishes I'll pretend I'm being interviewed and sometimes when I pay fifa I'll narrate over it in my head like I'm a youtuber

lmao good to know I'm not the only one

 

[PPEcel]

Jfl I do stuff like that too. When I'm doing the dishes I'll pretend I'm being interviewed and sometimes when I pay fifa I'll narrate over it in my head like I'm a youtuber

lmao good to know I'm not the only one

 

[dirtykombatcel]

i just keep thinking about all my cringe moments

all my moments* (my case)

 

[Subhuman Orangutan]

cant run it

Do you have a GTX or RTX?

 

[incelerated]

Fuck covid. I'm so so so fucking sick of this shit.
Fuck covid. I'm so so so fucking sick of this shit.

 

[Sportbro]

Do you have a GTX or RTX?

A 1050ti
I can probably run it on lower res but that will look awful

 

[Indari]

just do stuff bro

 

[BITG]

whenever i start thinking

I yell "stop" out loud to stop myself from thinking

I keep having these super intrusive thoughts and flashbacks of embarrassing moments

and im alone in my home so no one can hear me yell stop to myself

like if i died now no one would realize for like two months

this covid isolation thing is driving me nuts man i havent talked to anyone IRL in three months except for hookers who barely speak english and food delivery people and the mailman

Are people actually taking this COVID isolation thing seriously? Kek wtf?

 

[Deleted member 31869]

whenever i start thinking

I yell "stop" out loud to stop myself from thinking

I keep having these super intrusive thoughts and flashbacks of embarrassing moments

and im alone in my home so no one can hear me yell stop to myself

like if i died now no one would realize for like two months

this covid isolation thing is driving me nuts man i havent talked to anyone IRL in three months except for hookers who barely speak english and food delivery people and the mailman

just jewpillmaxx

i know it sucks but it is what it is

Are people actually taking this COVID isolation thing seriously? Kek wtf?

in my country its enforced by the cops

 

[Rambocel]

just jewpillmaxx

i know it sucks but it is what it is

in my country its enforced by the cops

What a shitty cuckountry

Fuck all that bullshit I go outside for hours every day and usually as a loner

 

[Deleted member 21752]

I keep having these super intrusive thoughts and flashbacks of embarrassing moments

Having a "trigger" in your mind to stop yourself helps a lot with intrusive thoughts

Whenever my mind gets lost in ramblings I imagine Vaas from Far Cry yelling "shut the fuck up" to quiet myself. Sounds autistic but it works


View: https://youtu.be/ZH5V5xIEGiU

 

[Pengwin]

View: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lzVD0JpLcEA

 

[Honeypot]

i just keep thinking about all my cringe moments

take english classes or something