ServusLuciferi
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At least more than I ever was before.
Idk, just shitty fucking karmic lot. Born ogre face ugly with retarded parents (mainly father who is a compulsive obese manchild control freak), even with getting a fucking sliding genioplasty and fixing my nose I still look just below average, and we live in decadent times where 80% of the population has the attention span of a fucking gnat and pretends life is fucking IRL Harry Potter with it being harder than ever to be a breadwinner. Nobody, nobody derives any meaning from their life, struggle, or suffering - I'm the one fucking loser that tries to do so.
All I can do is have faith that this is all just God's dream being projected on the big screen, and this is just a shitty movie. Maybe right now I'm Steve Carrell in Evan Almighty, maybe after death I'll be reborn as Steve Carrell in "Finding a Friend for the End of the World".
Not much I can do about it besides doing my best to improve the things I can. I have a few friends, will enjoy them before they all breed like rabbits and abandon me (all mid to late 20s).
Just continue to get in shape (I can bench 185, could do much better), learn new shit.
Maybe Lucifer and Lilith will get me some spooky witch gf - hocus pocus - but I don't think that's likely as I'm 25. Fucking Karmic lots man.
It's not anybody's fault, except for me running away from my own issues.
Idk, just shitty fucking karmic lot. Born ogre face ugly with retarded parents (mainly father who is a compulsive obese manchild control freak), even with getting a fucking sliding genioplasty and fixing my nose I still look just below average, and we live in decadent times where 80% of the population has the attention span of a fucking gnat and pretends life is fucking IRL Harry Potter with it being harder than ever to be a breadwinner. Nobody, nobody derives any meaning from their life, struggle, or suffering - I'm the one fucking loser that tries to do so.
All I can do is have faith that this is all just God's dream being projected on the big screen, and this is just a shitty movie. Maybe right now I'm Steve Carrell in Evan Almighty, maybe after death I'll be reborn as Steve Carrell in "Finding a Friend for the End of the World".
Not much I can do about it besides doing my best to improve the things I can. I have a few friends, will enjoy them before they all breed like rabbits and abandon me (all mid to late 20s).
Just continue to get in shape (I can bench 185, could do much better), learn new shit.
Maybe Lucifer and Lilith will get me some spooky witch gf - hocus pocus - but I don't think that's likely as I'm 25. Fucking Karmic lots man.
It's not anybody's fault, except for me running away from my own issues.
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