Michael15651
Destined Virgin.
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On my nights off, I drink until I get drunk. That could either be 2x a week up to 4x.
For example, tonight I had 3 twisted teas (5% each). Last night I had a 24oz of Mikes Harder lemonade (8% alcohol) with two twisted teas.
I NEVER drink around family. I’m afraid of being judged. That anxiety of being judged makes me think everyone is watching me and makes me ACT drunk, even if I didn’t drink anything. Just the thought of alcohol being mentioned.
I have family visiting my house so I moved all my alcohol in the mini fridge in my room and drink there. I try to be quiet drinking so they don’t hear the can crack open but it’s hard.
I justify it by saying “oh, other people my age are out partying and on spring break and drinking a gallon of rum or tequila so a few hard lemonades is nothing compared to that.”
But the truth is, that’s WHY I’m drinking. Because no one wants me. No girl will ever be attracted to me. I’ll never be good enough for anyone so why even bother trying anymore?
Between getting drunk imaging how good others have it parting and getting girls and watching porn imaging how lucky those guys are being able to fuck these women in all the positions all while I have nothing.
For example, tonight I had 3 twisted teas (5% each). Last night I had a 24oz of Mikes Harder lemonade (8% alcohol) with two twisted teas.
I NEVER drink around family. I’m afraid of being judged. That anxiety of being judged makes me think everyone is watching me and makes me ACT drunk, even if I didn’t drink anything. Just the thought of alcohol being mentioned.
I have family visiting my house so I moved all my alcohol in the mini fridge in my room and drink there. I try to be quiet drinking so they don’t hear the can crack open but it’s hard.
I justify it by saying “oh, other people my age are out partying and on spring break and drinking a gallon of rum or tequila so a few hard lemonades is nothing compared to that.”
But the truth is, that’s WHY I’m drinking. Because no one wants me. No girl will ever be attracted to me. I’ll never be good enough for anyone so why even bother trying anymore?
Between getting drunk imaging how good others have it parting and getting girls and watching porn imaging how lucky those guys are being able to fuck these women in all the positions all while I have nothing.





