Deleted member 7448
Name is Abdu, live in Laos, born on 24.08.1992.
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I have literally 0 social interactions outside of my mom and dad, and it's not like we talk that much either. I don't even communicate with people online.
That's the way I wanted it, that's true, I actively avoided people my entire life and I wanted to be alone.
But even I, this extreme loner and avoidant person, feel the need to express my thoughts, quite often actually. It's not loneliness, I think it's just a fundamental part of the human psyche, you are constantly thinking, so not ever expressing your thoughts and them remaining all in your head turns into an itch that is never scratched.
That's why I posted on this forum so much I guess. It was the most social interaction I got. But as you get older, online forums/communities feel hollow and like a waste of time. Nowadays I write threads and delete them before posting, or I abandon the idea of writing anything altogether.
I don't think I'll start talking to myself, but I'll probably develop new coping mechanisms for the utter loneliness. Perhaps I'll daydream more and create a more vivid imaginary inner world or something.
That's the way I wanted it, that's true, I actively avoided people my entire life and I wanted to be alone.
But even I, this extreme loner and avoidant person, feel the need to express my thoughts, quite often actually. It's not loneliness, I think it's just a fundamental part of the human psyche, you are constantly thinking, so not ever expressing your thoughts and them remaining all in your head turns into an itch that is never scratched.
That's why I posted on this forum so much I guess. It was the most social interaction I got. But as you get older, online forums/communities feel hollow and like a waste of time. Nowadays I write threads and delete them before posting, or I abandon the idea of writing anything altogether.
I don't think I'll start talking to myself, but I'll probably develop new coping mechanisms for the utter loneliness. Perhaps I'll daydream more and create a more vivid imaginary inner world or something.