Hi brothers in pain and suffering
I'm glad to have found this community and i can totally relate to almost everything here.
First i want to tell you a bit about myself. I'm 27 have no friends and surely never had a girlfriend either, also im currently unemployed. Lookswise im below average, i guess if i had enough energy and motivation to looksmax i could probably reach low tier normie level eventually.
But my real problem is something else. I had a somewhat ok childhood but since puberty everything went downhill for me. Since puberty i haven't managed to connect to people and relate to them. I never understood how they can all live this turbonormie life with their mainstream hobbies. I never understood why people hype famous celebreties so much and care for things like sports, fashion, work etc. I always was pretty disinterested in everything even though my parents tried to get me into hobbies without success and even i myself couldn't find something i could care enough of. At best i got ignored by people and in the worst case i got bullied or looked down upon.
I found my only solace in videogames, anime and tvshows which kept me somewhat sane and distracted while being enjoyable. But besides tv shows the other two are things you can't speak to normal people without being judged or frowned upon as adult. Even when i try to talk to people i don't know what to talk about and can't relate to all the stories about crazy parties and relationships because i was never invited to such things and had no experience in them. I was always alone and had to fight myself my whole life and it wears me down physically and mentally.
After i finished my school with average grades i took the first oppurtunity and became a trainee as mechanic in a factory. The job was shit but the money was somewhat ok and i could move out from my parents basement into a cheap small rented flat. I finished my trainee there and startet working regulary 40h or sometimes even 45h a week. But over the years my hate for this job grew stronger and stronger and my depression got worse. I worked there like subhuman slave all time welding or screwing metal shit together,hot sparks flying in my face while some rich assholes sit in their office and laugh while sipping coffee. So i needed to find a way out. I fell for the study stem and get rich meme, so i went to school after work to get a higher degree which would allow me to study. Don't ask me how i made it but i finished my degree quit my job and went studying computer engineering. Only to realize that im too stupid/dumb for advanced math and physics so i quit after 1 1/2 semester. Now im back to square one, the only good thing is that im financially covered for this and next year. But im kinda trapped in a dark pit and lost, it's so bad that i can't bother to find my next wageslave job for the moment. Existence is pain, im tired of living.
praise st. blackops2cel, sorry if the text was too long
I'm glad to have found this community and i can totally relate to almost everything here.
First i want to tell you a bit about myself. I'm 27 have no friends and surely never had a girlfriend either, also im currently unemployed. Lookswise im below average, i guess if i had enough energy and motivation to looksmax i could probably reach low tier normie level eventually.
But my real problem is something else. I had a somewhat ok childhood but since puberty everything went downhill for me. Since puberty i haven't managed to connect to people and relate to them. I never understood how they can all live this turbonormie life with their mainstream hobbies. I never understood why people hype famous celebreties so much and care for things like sports, fashion, work etc. I always was pretty disinterested in everything even though my parents tried to get me into hobbies without success and even i myself couldn't find something i could care enough of. At best i got ignored by people and in the worst case i got bullied or looked down upon.
I found my only solace in videogames, anime and tvshows which kept me somewhat sane and distracted while being enjoyable. But besides tv shows the other two are things you can't speak to normal people without being judged or frowned upon as adult. Even when i try to talk to people i don't know what to talk about and can't relate to all the stories about crazy parties and relationships because i was never invited to such things and had no experience in them. I was always alone and had to fight myself my whole life and it wears me down physically and mentally.
After i finished my school with average grades i took the first oppurtunity and became a trainee as mechanic in a factory. The job was shit but the money was somewhat ok and i could move out from my parents basement into a cheap small rented flat. I finished my trainee there and startet working regulary 40h or sometimes even 45h a week. But over the years my hate for this job grew stronger and stronger and my depression got worse. I worked there like subhuman slave all time welding or screwing metal shit together,hot sparks flying in my face while some rich assholes sit in their office and laugh while sipping coffee. So i needed to find a way out. I fell for the study stem and get rich meme, so i went to school after work to get a higher degree which would allow me to study. Don't ask me how i made it but i finished my degree quit my job and went studying computer engineering. Only to realize that im too stupid/dumb for advanced math and physics so i quit after 1 1/2 semester. Now im back to square one, the only good thing is that im financially covered for this and next year. But im kinda trapped in a dark pit and lost, it's so bad that i can't bother to find my next wageslave job for the moment. Existence is pain, im tired of living.
praise st. blackops2cel, sorry if the text was too long
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