What's sad is there is 0 friends that I can relate and share this with. But I am having a huge mental breakdown right now with crying myself to sleep, not eating enough, and just everything is going wrong in my life n it's all my fault.
so the story starts when I was a nubile bluepilled guy fresh out of high school that decided to go to university to get the most dumbfuck degree you can get - Biology lol. It luls you with a false sense of security because you think - hey I am doing a STEM degree so it will be fine all the while not understanding that Biology has some of the highest unemployment rates out there.
Anyways I chose that degree because I thought I will become a doctor long term. Just laugh at my delusion guys. An adhd addled subhuman whose brain had turned into a mush from scrolling internet all through his teenage years genuinely thought he was going to be a doctor.
and then for the last two and the half years I got blackpilled and very depressed as it almost changed my core view and perspective towards life. Like a fish learning that the ocean water is not the sky and there is land beyond. My reality shifted beneath my feet.
and before I knew it I went from a decent kid to flunking most of my classes, missing assignments, cheating exams. My dad was paying out of pocket for the degree too and he is not super rich just slightly upper middle class and I was supposed to pay him back with my future doctor money
well well well- Te college apparently had enough of me and the Academic counselor cunt "let me go". to put it kindly.
Now I am of college with a half finished biology degree who I didn't even had the motivation to finish let alone sit for med school.
thousands of dollars down the drain...my parents are getting older and I am rotting in my home WiTH ZERO JOB SKILLS and a half finished meme degree
My future is done for . From an academically gifted nerd to an absolute academic failure.
I quite literally spent the last three years just scrolling stupid stupid stupid stupid random shit on twitter, cuckeddit and this site. No friends.Heck I hadn't even watched any movies and TV shows the last three years.
I spent the peak years of my life holed inside a room watching stupid ragebait brain rot videos and now my brain is too mush to even complete simple undergrad degrees.
Like It was really bad guys. I looked up statistics on my phone and my average "online time" in the last three years was literally 14 hours "
I don't know guys I am at the end of my rope here. No ways out
so the story starts when I was a nubile bluepilled guy fresh out of high school that decided to go to university to get the most dumbfuck degree you can get - Biology lol. It luls you with a false sense of security because you think - hey I am doing a STEM degree so it will be fine all the while not understanding that Biology has some of the highest unemployment rates out there.
Anyways I chose that degree because I thought I will become a doctor long term. Just laugh at my delusion guys. An adhd addled subhuman whose brain had turned into a mush from scrolling internet all through his teenage years genuinely thought he was going to be a doctor.
and then for the last two and the half years I got blackpilled and very depressed as it almost changed my core view and perspective towards life. Like a fish learning that the ocean water is not the sky and there is land beyond. My reality shifted beneath my feet.
and before I knew it I went from a decent kid to flunking most of my classes, missing assignments, cheating exams. My dad was paying out of pocket for the degree too and he is not super rich just slightly upper middle class and I was supposed to pay him back with my future doctor money
well well well- Te college apparently had enough of me and the Academic counselor cunt "let me go". to put it kindly.
Now I am of college with a half finished biology degree who I didn't even had the motivation to finish let alone sit for med school.
thousands of dollars down the drain...my parents are getting older and I am rotting in my home WiTH ZERO JOB SKILLS and a half finished meme degree
My future is done for . From an academically gifted nerd to an absolute academic failure.
I quite literally spent the last three years just scrolling stupid stupid stupid stupid random shit on twitter, cuckeddit and this site. No friends.Heck I hadn't even watched any movies and TV shows the last three years.
I spent the peak years of my life holed inside a room watching stupid ragebait brain rot videos and now my brain is too mush to even complete simple undergrad degrees.
Like It was really bad guys. I looked up statistics on my phone and my average "online time" in the last three years was literally 14 hours "
I don't know guys I am at the end of my rope here. No ways out
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. I had to switch schools in 9th grade because, I flunked. I already knew I was ugly back then and I was extremely deppresed. Somehow finished highschool, but I wake up, eat, rot repeat. I have no motivation to change this as well.
