I'm fed up with being a DAMN KHHV at 22 years old. I've been reclusive throughout my adolescence until now, and the lack of social interaction has resulted in me only having 4 friends that I can trust (and even then, I don't have access to a nearly circle of women I could meet).
When people have a certain image of you, it's very difficult to get it out of their heads. They judge by the cover, thinking they know who you are just based on how you behave or the image you project. Most people have ignored me throughout my life. Sometimes I've had romantic interest in other women that could have been reciprocated, and I'm sure of it because they showed interest too, but I was a damn loser, a loser, and I believed it, and that's the image I reflected. Of course, now I have nothing to do with how I was before. I have a different image of myself, and every time I see some asshole in their twenties or adolescence with clear signs of having a lower-than-average intelligence quotient, I feel like smashing their damn head against the pavement. (THIS is a conclusion I have reached based on my own experience and certainly does not have to be true or present any kind of objectivity)
I'm not going to let anyone humiliate me ever again, and I'm certainly not going to fall back into the typical depressive pit of 'oh, I'm worthless, I should kill myself' every time someone mocks me or disrespects me. Why the hell should I let those assholes win by taking my own life? FUCK THEM!!! I should take their lives, those sons of bitches!!
You could say that I am a mentalcel or a volcel, because I am not ugly at all and in certain occasions I even consider myself slightly above average (6-7). That's why I'm so damn frustrated. It's not just the fact that I'm a fucking virgin, but also the fact that people see me as a loser who can easily be disrespected.
Most people think they have the right to disqualify certain people based on their physical appearance or status, while others should be respected, and that's what pisses me off the most about them. (This is just an opinion and may not correspond to reality)
When people have a certain image of you, it's very difficult to get it out of their heads. They judge by the cover, thinking they know who you are just based on how you behave or the image you project. Most people have ignored me throughout my life. Sometimes I've had romantic interest in other women that could have been reciprocated, and I'm sure of it because they showed interest too, but I was a damn loser, a loser, and I believed it, and that's the image I reflected. Of course, now I have nothing to do with how I was before. I have a different image of myself, and every time I see some asshole in their twenties or adolescence with clear signs of having a lower-than-average intelligence quotient, I feel like smashing their damn head against the pavement. (THIS is a conclusion I have reached based on my own experience and certainly does not have to be true or present any kind of objectivity)
I'm not going to let anyone humiliate me ever again, and I'm certainly not going to fall back into the typical depressive pit of 'oh, I'm worthless, I should kill myself' every time someone mocks me or disrespects me. Why the hell should I let those assholes win by taking my own life? FUCK THEM!!! I should take their lives, those sons of bitches!!
You could say that I am a mentalcel or a volcel, because I am not ugly at all and in certain occasions I even consider myself slightly above average (6-7). That's why I'm so damn frustrated. It's not just the fact that I'm a fucking virgin, but also the fact that people see me as a loser who can easily be disrespected.
Most people think they have the right to disqualify certain people based on their physical appearance or status, while others should be respected, and that's what pisses me off the most about them. (This is just an opinion and may not correspond to reality)
