I am not really suicidal, I just look forward to a time when I'm not here and don't have to try at life or suffer it anymore.
It's not just about inceldom. Living a life of poverty, working all day every day, living conditions, relationships with other people, being low-status, having had a life of negative reinforcement which has lead me to be low self-esteem, the prospect of dying alone and being eaten by maggots until there are so many maggots that they leak into the flat below (as we saw in an article earlier this week, some old man caused a single mother foid living in the flat below to have to move out).
It's such a rigmarole. Wake up tired. Throw self in shower. Rush to get ready for work. Commute. Work. Watched like a hawk. Feel like I'm seconds away from being fired. All day, I am creepzoned by women. Commute to the gym. Lift as much as my shitty genetics allow. Ignored by women. Walk home. Shitty home-life with me being belittled and insulted. Too tired to do any hobbies. Eat late. Go to bed late. Rinse and repeat.
I rarely like anything that happens. Whether it's more immigration, more feminism, more taxes, worse weather, friends getting more lays/gf, IRL services closing thanks to the Internet, friends letting me down, no time to see friends anyway. Like, nothing that happens seems to be to my benefit. It all sucks.
It's so shitty. I can't wait til I don't have to do this shit anymore.
