These days, it seems like there isn't much that truly matters to me anymore. I find myself heading towards a bleak future with nothing to look forward to, lacking friends or any significant connections. Everywhere I go, I encounter people treating me poorly for no apparent reason, and negativity seems to follow me constantly. I feel inadequate and unintelligent, struggling to perform even basic tasks like tying my shoes properly, even at the age of 18. School has been a challenging journey for me, requiring me to put in more effort than others to achieve only mediocre results. I've had instances where people approached me, questioning if I had some sort of intellectual disability.
I have reached a point where I can no longer find pleasure in activities that used to bring me joy. Whether it's playing games, enjoying delicious food, watching anime and movies, or even jerking off, none of it holds any meaning for me anymore. I simply fail to see the purpose in most things. I have reached a state of complete emotional numbness. As I write this post, I experience an odd sense of numbing euphoria. A few months ago, I was constantly overwhelmed with stress to the extent that I lost control of my bodily functions and had two incidents of uncontrollably shitting my pants.
I understand that some people on this forum may suggest finding ways to cope, but what do you do when you feel like you have exhausted all possible coping mechanisms?
I have reached a point where I can no longer find pleasure in activities that used to bring me joy. Whether it's playing games, enjoying delicious food, watching anime and movies, or even jerking off, none of it holds any meaning for me anymore. I simply fail to see the purpose in most things. I have reached a state of complete emotional numbness. As I write this post, I experience an odd sense of numbing euphoria. A few months ago, I was constantly overwhelmed with stress to the extent that I lost control of my bodily functions and had two incidents of uncontrollably shitting my pants.
I understand that some people on this forum may suggest finding ways to cope, but what do you do when you feel like you have exhausted all possible coping mechanisms?
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