iRespectFatLink
please come back
★★
- Joined
- Nov 13, 2018
- Posts
- 1,693
So this morning, I went with my family to go to an aquarium convention in a local city to see if I could cop some equipment to add on to my fish tanks. They had all kinds of shit, from fish food, to pets for sale, to tanks and live plants. As I was patrolling, looking for stuff I was interested in, I came past a table where the sellers were giving away freshwater rays and puffers that I absolutely wanted but couldn't get due to my funds and the means of not conjuring up the money due to the imperialistic greedy capitalist country I live in. As I was eyeing 2 of my most coveted animals to keep, I noticed an extremely beautiful Asian woman selling them who I couldn't take my eyes off of. She had to of been my age: in here early 20, possibly a bit older. She wasn't like those typical Chinese or Japanese women everyone is familiar with, but more tannish but looked more white. She was around the same size and height as me and fairly small, but my type for sure of girls I would talk to and try to bang.
But then I noticed the chad Asian male next to her. Can't decipher if he was the dad or older boyfriend, as there were no kids. But seeing this stereotype I have contracted in my numerous disappointments...I have to admit that this foid who didn't look at me a single time did something that was familiar in the past...but not in such a depressing wave of the shitty feeling I experienced. I really wanted to, if the timing was appropriate, interact with since it's so rare because I'm not in high school anymore, but seeing a hot chick you want to smash for the billionth time without the chance made me sit in my room all day today just swearing at shit on the internet and annoyances in an aggressive manner hardly exhibited by me ever. I played Super Mario Sunshine and literally was reduced to an aspie cursing at the TV screen in an attempt to distarct myself.
I'm normally too busy with a college degree and hobbies to be as worked up as I used to, but now it's getting to the point where I just can't take the universe teasing me all the damn time with foids. I don't know if I'll ever be FA or not and the tipping point was today. I have to do something about this. I refuse to be the victim anymore. I demand to pull women despite the odds or else I will lose my mind. I am 2 years sober but now, even with my parents holding onto my money to prevent me from buying drugs, am now desperate to relapse by lowering myself down to hustle and scam and sell items just so I can escape the dreadful feeling of my reparations. And what is entitled me is none other then what many many people are privliged with. I NEED!!! I NEED!!! I NEED!!! I NEED!!! I NEED!!! I NEED!!! I NEED!!! I NEED!!! I NEED!!! I NEED!!! I NEED!!! I NEED!!! I NEED!!! I NEED!!!
But then I noticed the chad Asian male next to her. Can't decipher if he was the dad or older boyfriend, as there were no kids. But seeing this stereotype I have contracted in my numerous disappointments...I have to admit that this foid who didn't look at me a single time did something that was familiar in the past...but not in such a depressing wave of the shitty feeling I experienced. I really wanted to, if the timing was appropriate, interact with since it's so rare because I'm not in high school anymore, but seeing a hot chick you want to smash for the billionth time without the chance made me sit in my room all day today just swearing at shit on the internet and annoyances in an aggressive manner hardly exhibited by me ever. I played Super Mario Sunshine and literally was reduced to an aspie cursing at the TV screen in an attempt to distarct myself.
I'm normally too busy with a college degree and hobbies to be as worked up as I used to, but now it's getting to the point where I just can't take the universe teasing me all the damn time with foids. I don't know if I'll ever be FA or not and the tipping point was today. I have to do something about this. I refuse to be the victim anymore. I demand to pull women despite the odds or else I will lose my mind. I am 2 years sober but now, even with my parents holding onto my money to prevent me from buying drugs, am now desperate to relapse by lowering myself down to hustle and scam and sell items just so I can escape the dreadful feeling of my reparations. And what is entitled me is none other then what many many people are privliged with. I NEED!!! I NEED!!! I NEED!!! I NEED!!! I NEED!!! I NEED!!! I NEED!!! I NEED!!! I NEED!!! I NEED!!! I NEED!!! I NEED!!! I NEED!!! I NEED!!!