I really should just fucking end it

[Thunderjaw]

I hate my existence. 

I am a mentalcell. My father beat me and my mother enabled him doing it until I graduated high school with the worst case of BPD anyone in the mental health field I've ever talked to has ever seen in addition to clinical depression, social anxiety disorder, and welp I was born with ADHD so why the fuck not!

I am not a virgin. I had sex in college. I even had a steady girlfriend for...like...3 months once?

I haven't had sex since my 21st birthday. I'm turning 34 this year. 

I have had more than 50 first dates in the last 12 years. 

I have had 0 second dates. 

I am so fucked up, grew up so isolated, am so stunted when it comes to human interaction and intimacy and emotions that I can't form even the most basic interpersonal relationships with women. I think I'm ugly but women actually tell me otherwise. I think that only makes it worse. Imagine the look of horror on a woman's face when she asks you a question about your childhood and the answer is abuse or asks you about your life and the answer is depression and BPD...I have nothing to talk about but the pain I exist in and my constant hell. I have nothing to offer anyone because there's not even a person left inside me. 

I have no way to pull myself out of the pit. Why am I even still alive?

 

[theultimate341]

at least you got dates

 

[Deleted member 1313]

It’s not your fault. If you have decent looks you should be able to do ok on tinder. If not and you have to rely on normie looks plus social game then yes, it will be very difficult.

 

[129samot]

Find something you really love doing

 

[Deleted member]

if you could bring yourself to have sex, an LTR and many dates to boot, your "interpersonal relationship" skills really cannot be that bad. try not being able to talk to any stranger at all

 

[Incel_Dikshit]

Damn show picture tbh.

 

[Thunderjaw]

I wouldn't call dating someone for three months and having sex with them like ten times a "Long Term Relationship"

And yeah I don't think my looks are the issue so much (though I am 350 pounds fucking thanks depression)

Oh and I've tried Tinder no one ever matches with me but ads and bots.

 

[ArtoriasWolf]

Doing better with women than most of us, so you got that at least.

 

[Morpheus]

My condelesences. You are just unlucky brah. That's how life is. Some guys ge tlucky once, some other guys gets gfs, some other guys are slayers and some guys are permavirgins.

 

[ItheIthe]

Lol @ desiring girls. They are completely used up and incapable of love. Stop focusing on them. What have they done too be worthy of your attention?

Take the Christpill and join the anti-degeneracy brigade, brother.

 

[Thunderjaw]

Lol @ desiring girls. They are completely used up and incapable of love. Stop focusing on them. What have they done too be worthy of your attention?
Take the Christpill and join the anti-degeneracy brigade, brother.

Fuck no degeneracy is fun. I'd fuck a roastie if she'd have me. My dick isn't small even a used up pussy would feel better than my hand.

 

[takurak]

Killing yourself will bring no joy.

 

[NeverSubmit]

It looks like you are a failed normie mentalcel

 

[takurak]

It looks like you are a failed normie mentalcel

Sounds like ER

 

[RREEEEEEEEE]

Damn show picture tbh.

 

[QuantumDummy]

Give the gayboys here what they want and show them your face.

 

[Homosapicuckus]

reading your short bio gives me the tought the wast majority of men face the same issues once they hit the agepil + wagecuck + norwooding period. There's no coming back you either cope or rope