i really dont wanna give up.

[copemaxx9002]

ive tried so hard, ive gotten up so many times after being fucked over by normies................ but sadly i think theyve won. ldar ig . normies you have beat me. normies you win. the white flag is up. after years and years of trying to fit into this soyciety i permanently give up. i know its what you wanted. but at least i can say i didnt go down without a fight.no i will not be committing suicide. irl at least........ i will be committing more of a social suicide if you will. i will rot. i will drink. i will not try at anything anymore, i give up. i dont care what you think about me. i dont care if you think im a loser. let me rot. let me fall into the ashes. let me fade away.

 

[copemaxx9002]

coming to this realization is brutal. knowing that it was somewhat inevitable. was i ever going to fit in with normies? no. i never have. i never will. but theres a sort of comfort that comes with knowing you will never be among the normies. in their parties. their social gatherings. their meetings. at least i am not a failed normie. a red pilling coper who is still waiting for that chance. a subhuman spending thousands on wathces and cars who wonders why he is empty. i am a loser. i am black PILLED. i know what reality i am in. and therefore i am free. free from the confounds of reality and "fitting in". free from the ego trap (for now at least). i have come back to the center of my being. the knowledge that i am just a mere cog in the machine. the metaphysical machine. that moves over and over and over again. the universe if you will. i am trapped. none of my words matter. none of the things i do here matter. i will die. and evaporate into total nothingness. there is no soul merely the hallucinations the brain experiences after death. these are the "afterlife experiences" many people have. there is nothing after death. and there is no meaning to my pitiful dreadful existence. and that to me is peace.

 

[SoycuckGodOfReddit]

ive tried so hard, ive gotten up so many times after being fucked over by normies................ but

in the end it doesn't even matter

 

[copemaxx9002]

in the end it doesn't even matter

RIP chester.

 

[SoycuckGodOfReddit]

 

[worrycel]

Blackpill always follow you even when you are ignorent of it

 

[SoycuckGodOfReddit]

RIP chester.

agreed

RIP

 

[copemaxx9002]

I don't wanna give you up, I don't wanna let you down

View: https://youtu.be/EyHKuyGsu4U?feature=shared

 

[Top Red Garnacho]

I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesn't even matter
One thing, I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mockin' me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I'm surprised it got so far
Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me in the end
You kept everything inside and even though I tried
It all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually
Be a memory of a time when I tried so hard
I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesn't even matter
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There's only one thing you should know
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There's only one thing you should know
I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesn't even matter

 

[SoycuckGodOfReddit]

I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesn't even matter
One thing, I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mockin' me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I'm surprised it got so far
Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me in the end
You kept everything inside and even though I tried
It all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually
Be a memory of a time when I tried so hard
I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesn't even matter
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There's only one thing you should know
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There's only one thing you should know
I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesn't even matter