ok I didn’t. But since I know no one will care about me roping this is the only way I can get attention to my rope.
Well that’s it, today I’m roping (hopefully, if all goes to plan) I’m so fucking tired . I’ve hated my life for 3 years now. I can’t remember the last time I was happy.
Every morning I hope I don’t wake up, every night I hope it’s my last. IM tired . I just want this to end.
This world wasn’t made for me and it would be marginally better with me out of it. Everyday I feel my grasp on reality loosen. I’ve started hearing screaming and seeing things that aren’t there . It’s driving me insane.
The hate in my soul is engulfing me. I HATE women so much. It’s so brutal.
And the funniest part is this is gonna be the best part of my life. And a life like this isn’t worth living . Some people have it worse than me, I know. But I wouldn’t blame them for roping either .
This world is nothing but relentless pain. And I’m fucking tired.
See you (hopefully not) on Monday
