2023_dutchcel
Greycel
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- Jan 4, 2023
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You always hear about people who ‘peaked in high school’ or something and just stayed in their hometown and did nothing with their lives. Well, I am pretty sure I peaked in primary school. At least I think it’s primary school, I’m not sure how education works in other countries but I mean the school you are in between ages 4-11. These were deadass my best years.
We lived in a house back then which had a really big garden with a small patch of forest. This was always really fun to play in as a kid, and I would often invite my classmates over to play outside here. Because of this I became friends with a lot of guys and I was honestly pretty popular. Some days I would have multiple kids come up to me to ask to play at my place that afternoon. By the last year of primary school I had basically befriended the entire class (except most foids, hormones weren’t running through me yet so I never bothered).
But then I went to high school (or the place you stay from like 12-18). Basically none of my primary school friends went to the same high school as me, so I had to make new friends. But at this point the girls and boys start socializing with each other and I struggled a lot with this, I developed bad social anxiety I had a few guy friends (call me fakecel for this) but honestly never interacted with the foids in class. I am now in college with hopeless looks and hopeless social skills and very few friends. I truly think I was at my happiest in primary school and I will never be as happy as I was back then.
Knowing I will never experience being a child again adds to my depression. The thing that makes adulthood fun is sex and romance but since those are non-existent in my life currently, I am only experiencing the bad sides of being an adult.
We lived in a house back then which had a really big garden with a small patch of forest. This was always really fun to play in as a kid, and I would often invite my classmates over to play outside here. Because of this I became friends with a lot of guys and I was honestly pretty popular. Some days I would have multiple kids come up to me to ask to play at my place that afternoon. By the last year of primary school I had basically befriended the entire class (except most foids, hormones weren’t running through me yet so I never bothered).
But then I went to high school (or the place you stay from like 12-18). Basically none of my primary school friends went to the same high school as me, so I had to make new friends. But at this point the girls and boys start socializing with each other and I struggled a lot with this, I developed bad social anxiety I had a few guy friends (call me fakecel for this) but honestly never interacted with the foids in class. I am now in college with hopeless looks and hopeless social skills and very few friends. I truly think I was at my happiest in primary school and I will never be as happy as I was back then.
Knowing I will never experience being a child again adds to my depression. The thing that makes adulthood fun is sex and romance but since those are non-existent in my life currently, I am only experiencing the bad sides of being an adult.