Venting I only used collecting as a cope not because i enjoyed it

[Glassness]

I haven't really discussed it on this forum but iv been a collector very materialistic for most of life iv collected everything books ,figures, games you name it. I'm not rich but i have never had anything else to spend my money on and now i sit in my bedroom and i just look around and i hate it all

i don't think about any of it i don't go to sleep thinking about whatever bullshit figure i bought i go to bed thinking about snuggling with a girl the way her body and hair would feel against mine instead all i have to hold is some cold plastic figure instead of a her warm body. It was all a cope a guy who went on 1 date with girl has more happiness then all this has ever brought me when you open the box maybe it gives me a dopamine spike for second but then i play it or read it or whatever and then everything just goes back to being still

This shit wont hold me it wont inbrace me it wont marry me i only did it to feel as im completing something. But iv completed nothing if i got hit by a truck tomorrow. What would i have on my deathbed nothing no memories of life no nothing just a sad mass produced collection nothing special nothing personal nothing at all. My memories are all worthless. Its like a prisoner decorating his walls he doesn't care he just wants to get out.

(I guess this is a sequel of sorts to the post i made yesterday iv been bottling up these posts for so long so il probably continue)

 

[RealSchizo]

I used to do similar stuff and collecting is a good cope in general, I agree.
Did that with mangas for awhile, games and many other things.
I have not consumed much of them by the way used to get burned out but seeing them rotting on some shelf or on the desk was lifefuel.

 

[Sir Silentium]

I don't have enough money to be a collector

 

[electricSon90]

Collecting is a god tier cope. I got a huge retro game collection.

 

[Nithingr]

All copes, in essence, are not enjoyable. Compared to the great pain of reality, they're a lesser pain, and that's what matters. Obession hurts, reality hurts more.

 

[undertaker77]

I've been collecting Transformers, Lego Speed Champions and CDs of alternative rock as an enjoyable hobby and also a cope. But I fear the bailifs are soon going to take it all away from me because I live with my mum who is severely debt ridden. And I'm a 41 year old virgin having to endure the fear of other people taking my copes away.