It's Over I Often Fantasize about killing myself Daily, with a self inflicted gunshot to the Head

[Justanotherbloke]

I might not rant about this online often, but that doesn´t mean my mind is at peace and/or quiet.
Thoughts about my future run through my mind 24/7, and it doesn´t look too bright for me when it comes to dating, social circles and friends.
I am so Non-NT and socially inept, that ascending for me is very unlikely and I´ll probably die as a virgin.
And even if I do manage to ascend, the woman in question will just be another disloyal hypergamous whore who´ll leave and cheat on me,
as soon as she finds a better option.

So I often ask myself off:
What´s the point of all this? Going to work daily, working out, trying to reach financial freedom just do do what?
Enjoy the income all by myself, staying in my apartment all by myself like a comlete moron?

So yea, I often fantasize about killing myself in the most efficient / painless way possible.
Cause I doubt that I´ll reach my early or mid 30s, living an empty life like this

 

[Sanega Salt Nigga]

I literally had a dream of roping a couple days ago

 

[Justanotherbloke]

I literally had a dream of roping a couple days ago

Roping seems painfull

 

[joocel52]

same man, there doesnt go by an hour of the day where i dont fantasize about suicuide

 

[light]

I literally had a dream of roping a couple days ago

 

[Justanotherbloke]

same man, there doesnt go by an hour of the day where i dont fantasize about suicuide

Those thoughts start to creep up when im home again, usually during the evening

 

[joocel52]

I literally had a dream of roping a couple days ago

had something similar too. i was jumping from a building and crying, there was a fmaily member and i said its okay, theres nothing to talk about.. something like that. woke up scared

 

[Sanega Salt Nigga]

Roping seems painfull

If your state isnt cucked you can buy a gun at 18, unfortunately I have to wait a few months before I can get a gun because CA laws require me to be 21

 

[SubhumanGamer]

that was my power Fantasy while i was a wagie. I would just imagine coming home from an awful day at work and just escape it all, all thanks to a bullet

 

[joocel52]

Those thoughts start to creep up when im home again, usually during the evening

whenever im in an interaction with another person i dont think about it as much, but when im alone its there

 

[Justanotherbloke]

that was my power Fantasy while i was a wagie. I would just imagine coming home from an awful day at work and just escape it all, all thanks to a bullet

So you are NEET now?

 

[SubhumanGamer]

So you are NEET now?

Yup, still wanna die 24/7 but not as badly as when I was waging

 

[Justanotherbloke]

whenever im in an interaction with another person i dont think about it as much, but when im alone its there

That´s why friends are key, but

1. I am really non NT, dont really know how to fit in and the modern terms/words being used by my peers

2. I dont believe in friends, most of them only want to be your friend if they can get something out of you,
exploit you in one way or another.
When I was 16, my old ´friends´ used me for my money and spent 200 dollars in one day for a trip to the
amusement park

 

[joocel52]

That´s why friends are key, but

1. I am really non NT, dont really know how to fit in and the modern terms/words being used by my peers

2. I dont believe in friends, most of them only want to be your friend if they can get something out of you,
exploit you in one way or another.
When I was 16, my old ´friends´ used me for my money and spent 200 dollars in one day for a trip to the
amusement park

the clue is finding the exceptional to be your friends. i have 2 friends basically, one is a very odd normie who has an obsession with history, so i am basically the only one he can talk to about it. the other is a 26 year old manchild. boith have nothing of economic value to exploit from me.

 

[Soystein]

same man, there doesnt go by an hour of the day where i dont fantasize about suicuide

 

[TheJester]

Get help.

 

[Justanotherbloke]

Get help.

Beneficial advice, haven´t heard that before

 

[coping_manlet]

Please shoot a few chads too before you go out brocel. Help strip the foids of their opportunity to fuck chads

 

[MassEffectKoala]

I literally had a dream of roping a couple days ago

i had rope dream to at a recent time

 

[TheJester]

Beneficial advice, haven´t heard that before

Its not about hearing it, its about doing it. And how many times did you do it?

 

[CEO of Simps]

I literally had a dream of spreading the whitepill a couple days ago

 

[charlieQ009]

Save the ammo for the ones needing it

 

[TheHungariancel]

The thought of killing myself crosses my mind at least once a day, but honestly, suicide is scary as fuck. I’m not religious so I don’t believe that “something is waiting for me on the other side”, but I’d need to be really down to actually commit it.

Worst part of all is that I wouldn’t even call myself depressed, it’s just seems pointless existing as an incel after a certain age.

 

[Justanotherbloke]

Its not about hearing it, its about doing it. And how many times did you do it?

Not a single time.
Cause I don't believe in seeking help,

 

[OutcompetedByRoomba]

Not a single time.
Cause I don't believe in seeking help,

gj, now he will continue giving advice this hollow to more and more people T_T

 

[Abou Baldiaby]

Become stoicel.

 

[Lonely4Ever]

 

[Emba]

Brutal

Take a shot

If you thought your oneitis was your soulmate and she was perfect and she didn’t feel the same way. And over time, you still can’t stop thinking about her even though it’s been years since you graduated hs, and now you’re at the point when you realize love at first sight isn’t real, and the only...

incels.is

 

[Emba]

is suicide a sin? i don't want to go to hell

It's a crime. If you kys then your go to jail

 

[Cincel]

Based

 

[MisanthropicMemes]

Been doing this since I was around 8, when I learned the concept of suicide to end one's own suffering

 

[Adolf Kitler]

real

 

[Chaircel]

Same. I've been doing this since I was 7 years old (though I used to do it arguably more frequently back then).

 

[Ryo_Hazuki]

There are times where I legit have to fight the urge to drive straight into a tree on my way to/from work.

 

[NIGGER BOJANGLES]

Its not about hearing it, its about doing it. And how many times did you do it?

There is no help. That’s why I often feel like roping. No love, no sex, a shitty job, bad health, and ocd. I often think about ending things to stop the pain

 

[cockroach]

I do the same except I feel as though killing myself is too selfish and not a choice. I like to imagine getting killed by a semi truck or getting cancer and dying or something. I do not want to live until I’m 70.

 

[JollyGentleman]

There is no help. That’s why I often feel like roping. No love, no sex, a shitty job, bad health, and ocd. I often think about ending things to stop the pain

I feel the exact same way as you and OP. It's rather surreal how on any given day I'll be feeling relatively okay, but then all of a sudden, I just start daydreaming or picturing myself with warm blood running down my face as I slowly lose consciousnesses and enter into the sweet release of death. I suppose it's a coping mechanism, my everyday reality is legitimately so unbearable that the thought of taking matters into my own hands and ending it all sounds exceedingly enticing.

 

[SrutalBeggs]

Same. Seems like the fastest way but theres no way to get a gun in Singapore. Maybe during the forced military training I might get to shoot a gun, might see what I can do and whether I even have the balls to shoot myself during then

 

[NIGGER BOJANGLES]

I feel the exact same way as you and OP. It's rather surreal how on any given day I'll be feeling relatively okay, but then all of a sudden, I just start daydreaming or picturing myself with warm blood running down my face as I slowly lose consciousnesses and enter into the sweet release of death. I suppose it's a coping mechanism, my everyday reality is legitimately so unbearable that the thought of taking matters into my own hands and ending it all sounds exceedingly enticing.

Yeah man, same. I hate how much pain and loneliness I go through, and it goes far beyond just inceldom. Death would be a sweet escape, and just thinking about it right now seems refreshing after how terrible things have been lately

 

[TheJester]

There is no help. That’s why I often feel like roping. No love, no sex, a shitty job, bad health, and ocd. I often think about ending things to stop the pain

Me too.

 

[JollyGentleman]

Yeah man, same. I hate how much pain and loneliness I go through, and it goes far beyond just inceldom. Death would be a sweet escape, and just thinking about it right now seems refreshing after how terrible things have been lately

Absolutely. Our lives are akin to perpetually being in a freezing cold room and rope maxxing is like crawling under a blanket. That is the analogy that I would give.

 

[NIGGER BOJANGLES]

Me too.

Brutal

 

[NIGGER BOJANGLES]

Absolutely. Our lives are akin to perpetually being in a freezing cold room and rope maxxing is like crawling under a blanket. That is the analogy that I would give.

Agreed, just want the misery to end

 

[Spaincel]

I might not rant about this online often, but that doesn´t mean my mind is at peace and/or quiet.
Thoughts about my future run through my mind 24/7, and it doesn´t look too bright for me when it comes to dating, social circles and friends.
I am so Non-NT and socially inept, that ascending for me is very unlikely and I´ll probably die as a virgin.
And even if I do manage to ascend, the woman in question will just be another disloyal hypergamous whore who´ll leave and cheat on me,
as soon as she finds a better option.

So I often ask myself off:
What´s the point of all this? Going to work daily, working out, trying to reach financial freedom just do do what?
Enjoy the income all by myself, staying in my apartment all by myself like a comlete moron?

So yea, I often fantasize about killing myself in the most efficient / painless way possible.
Cause I doubt that I´ll reach my early or mid 30s, living an empty life like this

I know it might be weird speaking about such deep thinh on the internet. If I could give you an advice, just focus on all the good things that live has. I enjoy my life with no sex and just a some friends I see very few times. Look for something, hobbys, art, religion, interests, goals, proyects... I think there is a lot in life we can enjoy.

 

[HotDogCel]

I literally had a dream of roping a couple days ago

 

[Justanotherbloke]

I know it might be weird speaking about such deep thinh on the internet. If I could give you an advice, just focus on all the good things that live has. I enjoy my life with no sex and just a some friends I see very few times. Look for something, hobbys, art, religion, interests, goals, proyects... I think there is a lot in life we can enjoy.

solid advice brocel thanks

 

[TheJester]

Brutal

I mean if you got nothing. No friends. No interests. No relationship.

What as a human is there ACTUALLY to do? Beyond your shit job WHATEVER IT IS there is nothing beyond that.

I never really enjoyed things. I never had much "joy" as a kid.

As an adult even less so yeah suicide thoughs are still occuring.

 

[CuntHater]

I might not rant about this online often, but that doesn´t mean my mind is at peace and/or quiet.
Thoughts about my future run through my mind 24/7, and it doesn´t look too bright for me when it comes to dating, social circles and friends.
I am so Non-NT and socially inept, that ascending for me is very unlikely and I´ll probably die as a virgin.
And even if I do manage to ascend, the woman in question will just be another disloyal hypergamous whore who´ll leave and cheat on me,
as soon as she finds a better option.

So I often ask myself off:
What´s the point of all this? Going to work daily, working out, trying to reach financial freedom just do do what?
Enjoy the income all by myself, staying in my apartment all by myself like a comlete moron?

So yea, I often fantasize about killing myself in the most efficient / painless way possible.
Cause I doubt that I´ll reach my early or mid 30s, living an empty life like this

Why kill just yourself when you can take a bunch of normfags with you?

 

[NIGGER BOJANGLES]

I mean if you got nothing. No friends. No interests. No relationship.

What as a human is there ACTUALLY to do? Beyond your shit job WHATEVER IT IS there is nothing beyond that.

I never really enjoyed things. I never had much "joy" as a kid.

As an adult even less so yeah suicide thoughs are still occuring.

For me my car hobby is literally basically all I have to live for. That’s why I’m so depressed lately because I haven’t even been able to do that because of the weather and other circumstances. Makes me depressed as hell

 

[AsiaCel]

Save the ammo for the ones needing it