Blackpill I now understand why my mother spoils me

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

Subconsciously my mother understands that I am probably gonna die alone, and so to compensate she spoils me and treats me like a child.

She is overly loving because she knows I am ugly and unlovable, in part I'm sure she doesn't want to accept it, but it is the truth.

I took a picture of myself recently and I understand why I've had it so hard in life. I look like a literal deformity. Maybe I was the result of fetal alcohol syndrome or something, but I genuinely look like a 1 out of 10.

It hurts me so bad to know that this god doesn't love me, and it hurts me even more to know that the only reason I am loved by my mom is because I am unlovable.

 

[InternalJizzz]

fucking sucks brocel. I may not be deformed. but i’m in a similar position. except my parents never babied me. quite the opposite, my mother facilitated abuse from my father for years until i moved out.

things didn’t get better for me. i’m a chronic drinker and often cut my wrists. i cope away with reading about international affairs, national socialism, and other non-NT topics.

 

[Hail]

It's a brutal world outside and she knows it.

 

[InternalJizzz]

It's a brutal world outside and she knows it.

 

[Mr. Agent Clark]

Subconsciously my mother understands that I am probably gonna die alone, and so to compensate she spoils me and treats me like a child.

She is overly loving because she knows I am ugly and unlovable, in part I'm sure she doesn't want to accept it, but it is the truth.

I took a picture of myself recently and I understand why I've had it so hard in life. I look like a literal deformity. Maybe I was the result of fetal alcohol syndrome or something, but I genuinely look like a 1 out of 10.

It hurts me so bad to know that this god doesn't love me, and it hurts me even more to know that the only reason I am loved by my mom is because I am unlovable.

im deformedcel too

 

[Incel.Belgrade]

Subconsciously my mother understands that I am probably gonna die alone, and so to compensate she spoils me and treats me like a child.

She is overly loving because she knows I am ugly and unlovable, in part I'm sure she doesn't want to accept it, but it is the truth.

I took a picture of myself recently and I understand why I've had it so hard in life. I look like a literal deformity. Maybe I was the result of fetal alcohol syndrome or something, but I genuinely look like a 1 out of 10.

It hurts me so bad to know that this god doesn't love me, and it hurts me even more to know that the only reason I am loved by my mom is because I am unlovable.

Brutal. Did your mom drink while she had you?

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

fucking sucks brocel. I may not be deformed. but i’m in a similar position. except my parents never babied me. quite the opposite, my mother facilitated abuse from my father for years until i moved out.

things didn’t get better for me. i’m a chronic drinker and often cut my wrists. i cope away with reading about international affairs, national socialism, and other non-NT topics.

That sounds rough brother, I'm sorry to hear that. I don't know how you survive on your own, I don't see any way of me getting out of here.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

It's a brutal world outside and she knows it.

Yep

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

im deformedcel too

 

[Aegon Targaryen]

Subconsciously my mother understands that I am probably gonna die alone, and so to compensate she spoils me and treats me like a child.

She is overly loving because she knows I am ugly and unlovable, in part I'm sure she doesn't want to accept it, but it is the truth.

I took a picture of myself recently and I understand why I've had it so hard in life. I look like a literal deformity. Maybe I was the result of fetal alcohol syndrome or something, but I genuinely look like a 1 out of 10.

It hurts me so bad to know that this god doesn't love me, and it hurts me even more to know that the only reason I am loved by my mom is because I am unlovable.

Your mom sounds awesome man.

Fuck God is all I can add.

 

[JealousyandHatred]

Subconsciously my mother understands that I am probably gonna die alone, and so to compensate she spoils me and treats me like a child.

She is overly loving because she knows I am ugly and unlovable, in part I'm sure she doesn't want to accept it, but it is the truth.

I took a picture of myself recently and I understand why I've had it so hard in life. I look like a literal deformity. Maybe I was the result of fetal alcohol syndrome or something, but I genuinely look like a 1 out of 10.

It hurts me so bad to know that this god doesn't love me, and it hurts me even more to know that the only reason I am loved by my mom is because I am unlovable.

Damn man

 

[InternalJizzz]

That sounds rough brother, I'm sorry to hear that. I don't know how you survive on your own, I don't see any way of me getting out of here.

I don’t really live alone. I just live with my aunt and her family instead. she was pretty sympathetic to the situation. i started running again though, and eating meat and eggs, trying to quit alcohol but its hard.

any advice?

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

Brutal. Did your mom drink while she had you?

I don't think so, I think I just got fucked over by my genetics. I get most of my traits from my mom, mixed with all the bad traits of my dad.

Big eyebrows, weird looking nose, weird looking lips, feminine eye area, long eyelashes, no jawline, no chin, can't grow facial hair, hair color is not consistent and ranges from brown to blonde, even the little hair I have on my chin has like red hairs mixed in. It's all so fucked.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

Your mom sounds awesome man.

Fuck God is all I can add.

She's a good mom, she means well.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

Damn man

Yep

 

[Mr. Agent Clark]

Damn man

"Damn man"

 

[Incel.Belgrade]

I don't think so, I think I just got fucked over by my genetics. I get most of my traits from my mom, mixed with all the bad traits of my dad.

Big eyebrows, weird looking nose, weird looking lips, feminine eye area, long eyelashes, no jawline, no chin, can't grow facial hair, hair color is not consistent and ranges from brown to blonde, even the little hair I have on my chin has like red hairs mixed in. It's all so fucked.

Long eyelashes is a males trait due to testosterone. It’s a health indicator. If you’re not 12% body fat you don’t know how you actually look.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

I don’t really live alone. I just live with my aunt and her family instead. she was pretty sympathetic to the situation. i started running again though, and eating meat and eggs, trying to quit alcohol but its hard.

any advice?

I'm the last person you should ask about staying sober lol. I can't cope without some form of drug

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

Long eyelashes is a males trait due to testosterone. It’s a health indicator. If you’re not 12% body fat you don’t know how you actually look.

I was skinny in high school, and everyone ignored me. I'd say the best I looked was probably a 4 out of 10, and nobody liked me.

 

[Incel.Belgrade]

I was skinny in high school, and everyone ignored me. I'd say the best I looked was probably a 4 out of 10, and nobody liked me.

Did you have visible abs or were you just skinny fat?

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

Long eyelashes is a males trait due to testosterone. It’s a health indicator. If you’re not 12% body fat you don’t know how you actually look.

I just naturally look feminine

 

[JealousyandHatred]

Your mom sounds awesome man.

Fuck God is all I can add.

Nah, she’s awful for spreading her legs for rawdogging so another person can suffer living in this miserable world.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

Did you have visible abs or were you just skinny fat?

Just skinny fat, but I was very skinny. I mean you could see the bones of my ribcage through my skin.

 

[JealousyandHatred]

Nah, she’s awful for spreading her legs for rawdogging so another person can suffer living in this miserable world.

I wish my dad just wore a condom and my parents were fine with one kid.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

Nah, she’s awful for spreading her legs for rawdogging so another person can suffer living in this miserable world.

Yeah, it's a mixed bag. I hate being alive, and I am deeply mentally unwell.

 

[Incel.Belgrade]

Just skinny fat, but I was very skinny. I mean you could see the bones of my ribcage through my skin.

It’s the same with me right now but I’m still skinny fat. I’ve seen men get really good faces from going to skinny fat to lean. But they had a decent bone structure before they lost fat. It’s possible you can get to normie tier by getting lean.

 

[Aegon Targaryen]

Nah, she’s awful for spreading her legs for rawdogging so another person can suffer living in this miserable world.

 

[InternalJizzz]

I'm the last person you should ask about staying sober lol. I can't cope without some form of drug

damn. i should probably see a psychiatrist no matter how gay or kike’d it is then.

 

[InternalJizzz]

It’s the same with me right now but I’m still skinny fat. I’ve seen men get really good faces from going to skinny fat to lean. But they had a decent bone structure before they lost fat. It’s possible you can get to normie tier by getting lean.

I gymaxxed for a year. it does work wonders. i went from a 4 to a 6. i'm wondering how ill look if I get actually big.

 

[Incel.Belgrade]

I gymaxxed for a year. it does work wonders. i went from a 4 to a 6. i'm wondering how ill look if I get actually big.

Are you lean? Do you have visible abs? I plan on losing my skinny fat so my face improves . In fact I might start today tbh.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

It’s the same with me right now but I’m still skinny fat. I’ve seen men get really good faces from going to skinny fat to lean. But they had a decent bone structure before they lost fat. It’s possible you can get to normie tier by getting lean.

It honestly wouldn't be worth it because I no longer want to try anymore. No point in working towards anything when the dating market is as terrible as it is. Plus I have completely lost the ability to love.

The only reason I would maybe do it is so I can look somewhat presentable if I ever decide to play music live. (But I doubt that will happen because I just don't care enough to try with that either. Honestly I don't want normies to find my music because they will never be able to understand what I'm going through.)

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

damn. i should probably see a psychiatrist no matter how gay or kike’d it is then.

Honestly that's not even worth it either. Your best bet is just to exercise and replace the bad habits with healthier ones. Like David goggins who went from one extreme to the other.

 

[InternalJizzz]

Are you lean? Do you have visible abs? I plan on losing my skinny fat so my face improves . In fact I might start today tbh.

I have some definition in my shoulders and chest but i’m still doing it consistently. My face did improve quite a bit, more defined.