Do you understand what you're getting into when your practice occult magic? Please don't get the wrong idea, I'm not talking down to you. I get the impression that you don't truly understand and appreciate the gravitas of this practice.
There is no good magic. The source of all magic is evil (the Keys of Solomon should have been burned those thousands of years ago). It costs you your soul, not from trading it (you can't, the Faustian bargain is a fantasy), but from the fact that your consciousness loses its connection with the original and divine source (God, if you want) by your own will and volition (atheists do this too, but they get nothing in return during their stay in this realm, though they retain the ability to reconnect).
This isn't even covering the demonology of it and the fact that all "spirits" who assist humans in exchange for something (worship, personal defilement/debasement, corruption) are only the evil ones. The neutral and good ones leave humans alone and don't lend their help for petty human desires and rivalries.
Whatever it is that you want out of this, it is absolutely NOT worth it. Cope how you want bro, but make sure you are 100% certain that this is what you want.
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