Venting i miss stimfapping sometimes

[iloveporn]

when i was in active addiction sometimes i would get either meth or 1-2 grams of coke plus some weed and alcohol and i would just geek out of my mind while watching porn and porn and more and more porn while masturbating.

The most i ever did was about 10hr id say.

It just felt so good, now whenever i watch porn (i watch a lot) and jerk off sometimes i wish i could go back to how that felt. It was otherwordly man. fuck.

The bad part is the fact that after gooning for so long and on all these drugs by the end of it my brain was completely drained of all the feel good neurotransmitters so id end up laying in bed for a whole day, watching how everyone starts their day and their normal lives while i walk around feeling like a demented sub-human. just hollow, just fucking hollow. terrible man i swear words cant describe it.

now i goon every so often but i do watch porn daily, i usually watch porn in the same way that people scroll social media, i scroll porn. i also watch porn on my 2nd monitor while i play games or as i type this for example.

id rather die than go back to that depraved senseless chaos of a lifestyle i was living. ive been sober for some time now but there will always be a part of me that remembers drugs fondly, there's a reason why people get addicted. it's just so fucking good.

 

[Animecel2D]

That sounds like it would completely fry your brain within days

 

[hierophant]

when i was in active addiction sometimes i would get either meth or 1-2 grams of coke plus some weed and alcohol and i would just geek out of my mind while watching porn and porn and more and more porn while masturbating.

The most i ever did was about 10hr id say.

It just felt so good, now whenever i watch porn (i watch a lot) and jerk off sometimes i wish i could go back to how that felt. It was otherwordly man. fuck.

The bad part is the fact that after gooning for so long and on all these drugs by the end of it my brain was completely drained of all the feel good neurotransmitters so id end up laying in bed for a whole day, watching how everyone starts their day and their normal lives while i walk around feeling like a demented sub-human. just hollow, just fucking hollow. terrible man i swear words cant describe it.

now i goon every so often but i do watch porn daily, i usually watch porn in the same way that people scroll social media, i scroll porn. i also watch porn on my 2nd monitor while i play games or as i type this for example.

id rather die than go back to that depraved senseless chaos of a lifestyle i was living. ive been sober for some time now but there will always be a part of me that remembers drugs fondly, there's a reason why people get addicted. it's just so fucking good.

That's the whole of it, feels great to great, your away from everything and everyone, including yourself.

 

[iloveporn]

That sounds like it would completely fry your brain within days

yes it would, and till this day i have no proof but also no doubts that all this constant substance abuse is what fucked up my damn brain

 

[H8mychudlife]

Fucking hell man, I tried drugs before but I could totally tell my life would get so much worse if I kept doing them.

This is what subhumanity pushes us to do, if you can't get those neurochemcials naturally, you will try to get them synthetically

 

[Animecel2D]

yes it would, and till this day i have no proof but also no doubts that all this constant substance abuse is what fucked up my damn brain

I’m no expert but your brain should eventually heal given enough time and maybe quitting porn for a while too would expedite that process

 

[iloveporn]

I’m no expert but your brain should eventually heal given enough time and maybe quitting porn for a while too would expedite that process

youre right, youre right.

 

[iloveporn]

Fucking hell man, I tried drugs before but I could totally tell my life would get so much worse if I kept doing them.

This is what subhumanity pushes us to do, if you can't get those neurochemcials naturally, you will try to get them synthetically

Yup, that's what the fuck i did for years. self medicating bc my brain was faulty. meds changed my life. i still do drugs. but theyre prescribed to me by a doctor and are legal/free

 

[Tokoken]

I never done drugs before but im addicted af to jerking off and damn bro, u got me curious about it now...

Too bad im too broke to buy anything I can get high from anyway

 

[jasonsingh40]

when i was in active addiction sometimes i would get either meth or 1-2 grams of coke plus some weed and alcohol and i would just geek out of my mind while watching porn and porn and more and more porn while masturbating.

The most i ever did was about 10hr id say.

It just felt so good, now whenever i watch porn (i watch a lot) and jerk off sometimes i wish i could go back to how that felt. It was otherwordly man. fuck.

The bad part is the fact that after gooning for so long and on all these drugs by the end of it my brain was completely drained of all the feel good neurotransmitters so id end up laying in bed for a whole day, watching how everyone starts their day and their normal lives while i walk around feeling like a demented sub-human. just hollow, just fucking hollow. terrible man i swear words cant describe it.

now i goon every so often but i do watch porn daily, i usually watch porn in the same way that people scroll social media, i scroll porn. i also watch porn on my 2nd monitor while i play games or as i type this for example.

id rather die than go back to that depraved senseless chaos of a lifestyle i was living. ive been sober for some time now but there will always be a part of me that remembers drugs fondly, there's a reason why people get addicted. it's just so fucking good.

How old were you when you were doing these hard drugs and gooning?

And how old are you now?

And how many years have you been sober?

Do you do any mild drugs now (weed, alcohol, etc) ?

 

[psyop]

now i goon every so often but i do watch porn daily, i usually watch porn in the same way that people scroll social media, i scroll porn. i also watch porn on my 2nd monitor while i play games or as i type this for example

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