It's Over I miss childhood.

[caineturbat2003]

My own childhood is the only thing I look fondly at, well at least partially since there are other parts that were just shit due to me being a cripple with OI. But you get the idea. Even with a small amount of suffering you would still know that everyone you knew had your back ranging from obviously your parents, your other relatives, bf"f", other friends and even kinda adult strangers.

Before writing this I just realised just how my life peaked in those times. I could do anything I wanted without being looked at weird or shamed for it. If it were weird, people would just chalk it up as just "it's just kids". Even finding pals was much more easier. All it took were these simple words "wanna be friends and play together?".
Even if you weren't the popular kid, you would still find a couple of friends to hang out with.

Things back then were much more simpler, even the feeling of suffering couldn't take away the happiness I was feeling at that time.

Everything changed when I became a teenager. The old friends I made simply abandoned me to be with the other cool groups to statusmaxx, people judging every action you took, people pushing you towards directions that you didn't want to take, feeding you the fear of failure at every second in middle school only to make all those 12 years of pure torement worth of nothing.

What's more brutal isn't the fact that your personal childhood is gone and now you live in a constant emptiness, what's more brutal is that the people you knew, the society you knew, the world you knew, all that was an illusion by your naive childish mind that was broken by your developed awareness. That is the most brutal aspect of reaching adulthood. That everything you knew was a lie.

 

[Itsoverm8]

Mine was shit

 

[endoftheskies]

My own childhood is the only thing I look fondly at, well at least partially since there are other parts that were just shit due to me being a cripple with OI. But you get the idea. Even with a small amount of suffering you would still know that everyone you knew had your back ranging from obviously your parents, your other relatives, bf"f", other friends and even kinda adult strangers.

Before writing this I just realised just how my life peaked in those times. I could do anything I wanted without being looked at weird or shamed for it. If it were weird, people would just chalk it up as just "it's just kids". Even finding pals was much more easier. All it took were these simple words "wanna be friends and play together?".
Even if you weren't the popular kid, you would still find a couple of friends to hang out with.

Things back then were much more simpler, even the feeling of suffering couldn't take away the happiness I was feeling at that time.

Everything changed when I became a teenager. The old friends I made simply abandoned me to be with the other cool groups to statusmaxx, people judging every action you took, people pushing you towards directions that you didn't want to take, feeding you the fear of failure at every second in middle school only to make all those 12 years of pure torement worth of nothing.

What's more brutal isn't the fact that your personal childhood is gone and now you live in a constant emptiness, what's more brutal is that the people you knew, the society you knew, the world you knew, all that was an illusion by your naive childish mind that was broken by your developed awareness. That is the most brutal aspect of reaching adulthood. That everything you knew was a lie.

yeah same, after that its over... , but even then, 7 year old girls would still lust for attractive/handsome boys..... brutal pill bro..

 

[zangano1]

Childhood was the peak of my life, its just been downhill from there

 

[Itsoverm8]

yeah same, after that its over... , but even then, 7 year old girls would still lust for attractive/handsome boys..... brutal pill bro..

Yep I remember being in middle school and foids used to lust after one direction

 

[aryanmikmaq]

I missed being a little kid

 

[BPJ]

my childhood prior to age 11 was ok, i miss that time, even since puberty it all went to hell

 

[superpsycho]

i dont miss any year past the age of 8

 

[Homegrownman326]

I look back on mine very fondly. I miss the freedom that it brought and the innocence. I wasn't saddled with lust or sexuality, which have brought me tremendous grief. I never chose to be a sexual being, not like I chose to be alive to begin with. When I ponder ideas of the afterlife, of being a free soul not bound by the flesh, sometimes I forget there was a time when that was the case. Desire didn't exist when I was a child; I was purely me. I've really come to view sex in a negative light, as it's the very thing that ties us to death. Procreation only exists as a result of death's existence. Everything sexual is a brush with the thing we dread most, our pending disposition.

 

[AdolfRizzler]

there is no period of my life that was ,,good", so that s why i miss no period of my life, all my life was bad

 

[Livonica_Irreale]

Even finding pals was much more easier. All it took were these simple words "wanna be friends and play together?".
Even if you weren't the popular kid, you would still find a couple of friends to hang out with.

Lol no, even in kindergarten i was loner outcast bullied by cool kids.
I had only short period of playing with other kids in elementary school, but because i wasn't in the bottom of hierarchy since there were dozens of more or less deranged kids from disfunctional families.
And after that - downwards spirall of despair happened and now i'm here.