I type this in fear. I had a shit past. Physically abused by my whore of a mother and her 3 boyfreinds during my childhood(she even had run ins with CPS). Also gaslighted/manipulated by her. Treated like shit during my child hood. 25. Bullied and cut off from society. And in some bad situations because no one taught me better about some things in the world of financials. Somtimes I get these mental sensations of bullshit scenarios going on. And when any of these pop up. It gets me mad. Like so mad I dont even know my enviroment.
At first I got so mad over a taxing bullshit situation that I passed out for a hour. Then after that I got mad again and went through a anger attack so hard I felt pain in both my heart and left arm. A really bad call sign. I had instances of were these anger attacks out happan at work and I would end up destroying food products. I would have these attacks wile driving causing me to road rage witch lead to the thread were I cut off some fat women in a subaru. There would be one time I would rage over past events or these made up scenarios that pop up in my head and I got semi apeshit. Unlike Eliot it wasnt over being sexless as shitty as it is but... I dont even know what at this point. I type this as a good bye not that Im leaving(no way I will). But incase I loose my shit and either end up in the hospital or dead. The anger attacks cause me to either black out or suffure whats probably a heart attack. God knows what the fuck else is waiting for me. See yall if Im not in hell yet.
At first I got so mad over a taxing bullshit situation that I passed out for a hour. Then after that I got mad again and went through a anger attack so hard I felt pain in both my heart and left arm. A really bad call sign. I had instances of were these anger attacks out happan at work and I would end up destroying food products. I would have these attacks wile driving causing me to road rage witch lead to the thread were I cut off some fat women in a subaru. There would be one time I would rage over past events or these made up scenarios that pop up in my head and I got semi apeshit. Unlike Eliot it wasnt over being sexless as shitty as it is but... I dont even know what at this point. I type this as a good bye not that Im leaving(no way I will). But incase I loose my shit and either end up in the hospital or dead. The anger attacks cause me to either black out or suffure whats probably a heart attack. God knows what the fuck else is waiting for me. See yall if Im not in hell yet.
