Venting Abusive mother might be the end of me

[Clit CFO]

I have to live with my mum because I'm disabled and finding work is pretty hard for me. Recently she got broken up with by her deadbeat boyfriend that lets his crazy ex slander her online (her lack of self respect is diabolical) and she's decided to take her anger out on me, she's been doing this since I was a small child. She's threatening to rehome my childhood dog and kick me out of the house (I pay a decent amount of rent and buy all my own food which she eats and doesn't pay me back for) the wait list for government housing is incredibly long and even despite me being unable to work and living in an abusive household I wont be a high priority for housing, fucking junkies will be higher on the list than me.

she's always lacked empathy, I mean I had to be homeless with her as a child because she refused to work and despite that she's threatening to put me in a position where I have to be homeless again, there's really not much I can do to get myself out of that situation and she knows that.

Whenever she's in these moods she just keeps yelling at me till she's hyped up enough to physically assault me, I have a few videos in the past of her trying to hit me, pin me to walls, clawing at me to get my phone so I can't film her. I think it's about time I go to the police with the evidence I have and get some type of restraining order where I can be around her but if she gets physical with me then she's violating the restraining order. I've had a lot of bad experiences with the police though where they've done nothing to help me, I'd rather not be shut in a room alone with them again and have them film me while I go into painful detail of the assaults I've faced (which they end up doing nothing about, that bodycam footage is just left in their database to rot.)

just sort of at my wits end, I don't see there being a likely situation where I can get out of being homeless. If I do end up getting kicked onto the street I'll probably just waste my last few years shooting up heroin or some bs to cope, really end up like my dad (ya know maybe he'll actually like me then and stop ignoring my messages)

hopium maxxing ain't gonna get me out of this one guys, might be the end for Clit CFO. Much love for my other homies struggling here, I value you guys even despite not getting along with all of you.

If there's any positive developments I'll keep everyone updated even if no one gives a shit about what happens to me, praying I can make it through this to show there is hope, otherwise I'm just fuel for believing in the blackpill philosophy.

for anyone whose read this far I hope you're doing good, thanks for taking the time to listen to me.

 

[PhineasSpear]

Damn, hope your mom doesn't kick u out. My condolences, brocel.

 

[Izayacel]

So many people here seem to have shit parents , like to the point these mothers didnt intend of having you

 

[Zeref]

What kind of disability do you have

 

[Rick prime]

So many people here seem to have shit parents , like to the point these mothers didnt intend of having you

It’s like they want to be the biblical god who in the exact same fashion made humanity a probable shit show.

Art imitates art

 

[Biggie cheesel]

Having an abusive mother sounds like fucking hell to me. One of my cousins has a very abusive mom and this nigga is already at verge of killing himself at fucking 13 because of her

If mom was abusive I would teach her a real great lesson, stupid fucking cunt gives you birth despite knowing your genetics will be DOGSHIT and still decides it's a good idea to be an abusive asshole.

 

[subhumanmonkey]

Hope shit gets better, my mother was very similar until she got neutered by antidepressants.

 

[Clit CFO]

What kind of disability do you have

lvl 2 autism
ADD
anxiety
chronic depressive disorder
I also have a rare neurological condition I'd rather not disclose.

That said I understand not all are classed as disabilities but it's easier to use disability as an umbrella term for the plethora of things that disable my ability to do much. I do have my highs where I'm able to study and work but I often face long periods where I'm unable to do anything.

 

[Clit CFO]

If mom was abusive I would teach her a real great lesson, stupid fucking cunt gives you birth despite knowing your genetics will be DOGSHIT and still decides it's a good idea to be an abusive asshole.

I think my strife with her is that I was an accident and she decided to keep me to give her life purpose but when things get too hard she tries to egg me on to kill myself. I don't think hurting her back in a grand capacity would fix anything or make other abusive parents scared enough to change their ways. No one will care about my opinion and struggles if I become the monster.