I relate so much.
First I NEETed, then I thought my life might improve if I got a job. And after searching forever to begin wageslaving, it was nothing like I expected. It feels like there's not even point, because nobody likes me in my job, and only the other subhumans make small talk. I make nothing, no money, and do even less with what I earn.
I'm still wageslaving, but u know how it gets. A gf would at least give u a path throughout life and enable you to transition into family life like a sucessful member of society, but ugly so that's never happening. And then you just count your fucking days wanting to checkout this hotel early. Beyond brutal watching your attractive friends not only life mog you but drift apart.