Serious I know who made me incel and why i am

[kantero]

Grandmother. Or my grangrandfather.

Grandgrandfather had two children: my granny and a boy. He gave everything: education etc to the boy, when grandmother got nothing + grandmother when was 10yo used to steal products from shop because they were poor. Father was very brutal and that's why, i think, grandmother became energetic vampire and manipulator.
My mother was leader for boys in childhood. Was on the road to become top sportsman. But granny made her awkward, without confidence and ruined her life. Good therapist and friend of us (kinda friend because he made a lot of good things to us) helped her but she will never be leader again.
Me. I also was leader, had girl when i was in kindergarten. But i went to school and granny was the one who took care of me. Now im permastressed, awkward incel.

Puberty = growth. Growth = hormones. Cortisol = blocks hormones. Blocked hormones = no growth.
That's why im incel. Im 17. If i will destroy stress with drugs by help of that therapist, i still will never reach my genetical max potential.

 

[Jockcel]

 

[kantero]

Why do you call me autist? Of course genetics and evnironment play big role, but stress which causes you to stop growing is serious issue.
And im actually fucking fear people and im somewhat of autist now. And in kindergarten i was real alpha, like my mother in her childhood: there were always people around me, they were in my control, i had a girl (lol, my first girl), i was brave and liked tournaments). And now my psychical health is broken and im perma nervous and stressed autist who feels safe only when at home and not always even there.