Venting I just hate going to university and my life in general

[ibalmevelo]

I just hate it and it makes me want to give up.
Everytime I go I just think about needing to hang out with these random people who I thought are nice in the beginning. They all don't know that I am an incel. They don't know I have autism. I just get ragebaitet all the time, especially by this one guy who I thought was pretty chill in the beginning. But now I just hate spending time with them.
There are only 2 chill people and they are never there.
It sucks being autistic and needing to go through this every day without seeing an end. I get depresed, I hate almost everyone, I don't want to do this any more. If it wasn't for me costing my parents money every month because I can't take on a full time job I would have already jumped off a building or hung myself on my ceiling.
I don't want to do this shit any longer. Everything. I hate this fuckass world and all the normal people who can just live normal happy lifes.
If it wasn't for my family I would have killed myself by now. What should I do about my Situation? I just want to be NT Chad and loved for who I am but this will never happen. This kills me inside and makes me sick in my stomach. It is so brutal.

 

[ToBurble&Pine]

I dropped out

 

[AutistSupremacist]

I dropped out

I never attended

 

[turbocuckcel_7000]

I never attended

I never existed

 

[Caichan]

I never existed

lucky

 

[ibalmevelo]

I dropped out

I am an autist and I actually like computer science.
But how my life looks right now I will just be an IT-incel who is making shure that all the fucking Tinder servers work so Chad can fuck the 22nd MTB this month while I sit at a computer and make sure all the servers work.
My existence is just sad on it's own. Even if a woman comes to me right now and sais she likes me I can not fucking beliefe it let alone talk to one.
My life is just ropefuel on its own.
I thank my parents for my close set eyes and my underdeveloped and recessed fucking jaw. Thanks for my parents both being FUCKING SHORT.
I WILL NEVER FIND ANY FORM OF LOVE AND IT MAKES ME WANNA KILL MYSELF

 

[ToBurble&Pine]

I am an autist and I actually like computer science.
But how my life looks right now I will just be an IT-incel who is making shure that all the fucking Tinder servers work so Chad can fuck the 22nd MTB this month while I sit at a computer and make sure all the servers work.
My existence is just sad on it's own. Even if a woman comes to me right now and sais she likes me I can not fucking beliefe it let alone talk to one.
My life is just ropefuel on its own.
I thank my parents for my close set eyes and my underdeveloped and recessed fucking jaw. Thanks for my parents both being FUCKING SHORT.
I WILL NEVER FIND ANY FORM OF LOVE AND IT MAKES ME WANNA KILL MYSELF

didn't ask

 

[Soy Rage]

Won't it be better to just drop the friend group tho?

 

[ibalmevelo]

didn't ask

fuck you you stupid hentaicel

 

[Pikacel]

I am an autist and I actually like computer science.
But how my life looks right now I will just be an IT-incel who is making shure that all the fucking Tinder servers work so Chad can fuck the 22nd MTB this month while I sit at a computer and make sure all the servers work.
My existence is just sad on it's own. Even if a woman comes to me right now and sais she likes me I can not fucking beliefe it let alone talk to one.
My life is just ropefuel on its own.
I thank my parents for my close set eyes and my underdeveloped and recessed fucking jaw. Thanks for my parents both being FUCKING SHORT.
I WILL NEVER FIND ANY FORM OF LOVE AND IT MAKES ME WANNA KILL MYSELF

As long as you secure a job. Focus on that.

 

[arkaxfoidletslayer]

I just hate it and it makes me want to give up.
Everytime I go I just think about needing to hang out with these random people who I thought are nice in the beginning. They all don't know that I am an incel. They don't know I have autism. I just get ragebaitet all the time, especially by this one guy who I thought was pretty chill in the beginning. But now I just hate spending time with them.
There are only 2 chill people and they are never there.
It sucks being autistic and needing to go through this every day without seeing an end. I get depresed, I hate almost everyone, I don't want to do this any more. If it wasn't for me costing my parents money every month because I can't take on a full time job I would have already jumped off a building or hung myself on my ceiling.
I don't want to do this shit any longer. Everything. I hate this fuckass world and all the normal people who can just live normal happy lifes.
If it wasn't for my family I would have killed myself by now. What should I do about my Situation? I just want to be NT Chad and loved for who I am but this will never happen. This kills me inside and makes me sick in my stomach. It is so brutal.

if you're still not mentally condition and used to this (still fighting with it) then you can get cosmetic procedures to look better. and at that point noone cares even if you were mentally disabled. as long as you're good looking.