I just broke down crying

[Fontaine]

I was watching the ending of Vanilla Sky on Youtube, when I suddenly broke down crying. It was one of the most powerful flow of tears I ever experienced in my life, and I didn't know I was still capable of this (my attitude had grown increasingly jaded, serious and cynical in the past decade). A realization (not new, but making an unexpected comeback after many years of repression) had come to me - that my life is a horror show merely because my perfectly good brain is captive of an unfortunate prison of flesh that has too many millimeters of bone growth in the wrong places, and this brain can't be moved to another envelope safely within our current knowledge and medical capabilities.

I calmed down a bit when I reflected on all the other injustices, sometimes a lot worse, that have stricken the human species for millenia.

 

[Deleted member 265]

the good life has made you weak, frend

 

[Hozo]

get better bro

 

[Deleted member 677]

 

[Deleted member 7573]

Vanilla Sky is one of the only movies that made me sad as well, I still want to watch the original spanish movie

 

[acnescarcel]

get plastic surgery br0

 

[lastchancel]

yeh that happened to me when i first joined this place lmao

 

[KilluminoidBR]

Are you a skullcel?

 

[CopeIsCope]

Maybe I should watch Vanilla Sky too , I saw it mentioned here a couple of times already. Where can I watch it?

 

[Sparrow's Song]

Are their skull implants you can get on the sides of your head to make it look like you have a big round head to reduce the visual effect of dolichocephaly by giving off more of an Irish big head look? I would combine that with roidmaxxing and neckmaxxing. I'd even get demon horn implants, grow a ZZ Topp beard and bikermax. This all probably sound really dumb.

Holy Shit! That movie sound like the most High IQ incel movie ever. Like The Matrix for subhumans. Gonna watch blazed.

 

[FiveFourManlet]

I stopped crying when i realised that crying is another way of you looking for sympathy sub-consciously.

Sub 8s don't deserve any sympathy, what is happening now is for the better, trying to make it better is impossible.

 

[Deleted member 1252]

I remember watching the original Spanish film Open Your Eyes when I was about 21. It had a profound effect on me - I was at university and suffering alone, watching lots of arthouse European films and searching for meaning. The film itself was like being in a relationship and having your heart broken. Similar to Mulholland Drive. Incidentally, Mulholland Drive almost gave me a mental breakdown when I first saw it.

I have always suffered alone. Always will.

 

[Deleted member 5861]

You aren't allowed to feel lonely as a man, that is misogynist.

 

[StaroRavager]

I stopped crying when i realised that crying is another way of you looking for sympathy sub-consciously.

Funny I came to that same realization myself and haven’t cried since

 

[FiveFourManlet]

Funny I came to that same realization myself and haven’t cried since

I have noticed that we think very alike.

 

[Fontaine]

Funny I came to that same realization myself and haven’t cried since

So edgy / metal

I stopped crying when i realised that crying is another way of you looking for sympathy sub-consciously.

Sub 8s don't deserve any sympathy, what is happening now is for the better, trying to make it better is impossible.

 

[StaroRavager]

I have noticed that we think very alike.

Great minds tend to do so

So edgy / metal

Sometimes life is edgy, though to your credit I may mellow out if I decide to stay a for few more years

 

[Sparrow's Song]

I stopped crying when i realised that crying is another way of you looking for sympathy sub-consciously.

Sub 8s don't deserve any sympathy, what is happening now is for the better, trying to make it better is impossible.

The whole point of man and his thumbs is to change nature of our material reality so the souls unfortunate enough to suffer the fate of being born within it's bounds can progressively liberate themselves from it's darkness, not succumb to it

 

[Deleted member 11032]

It's good to cry. Feel good chemicals get released afterwards. I sometimes welcome a good healthy cry. I don't understand those people who never cry.

 

[FiveFourManlet]

The whole point of man and his thumbs is to change nature of our material reality so the souls unfortunate enough to suffer the fate of being born within it's bounds can progressively liberate themselves from it's darkness, not succumb to it

That’s just another cope like carpe dorm, delusional.

So edgy / metal

Its a hard truth, trying to fight mother nature is cope.

 

[Fontaine]

Sometimes life is edgy

Step 1: emotions
Step 2: rationalism / edgy teenage cynicism ("natural selection", "shit happens", "a human body is just a ball of cells", "man up", being ashamed of crying - aka toxic masculinity)
Step 3: reverting back to emotions after you realized the brain is not a rational machine, and "rationalists" are usually just depressed assholes who need Prozac

 

[ReallocatedSanity]

Get better soon. it'll pass soon enough. There is not much we can do about the world's problems on our own. A life full of apathy might not be the most fun or exciting but it does help bring a sort of calm to the mind and body, no matter how bad your personal situation might be.

 

[Sparrow's Song]

That’s just another cope like carpe dorm, delusional.

Its a hard truth, trying to fight mother nature is cope.

It wont be cope when the doctors of the future give me super saiyan implants so I can fly in the sky and jerk my ape cock off seven hundred feet above Stacy's head and blast her face with a fat nut fired using eagle eye precision.

 

[FiveFourManlet]

It wont be cope when the doctors of the future give me super saiyan implants so I can fly in the sky and jerk my ape cock off seven hundred feet above Stacy's head and blast her face with a fat nut fired using eagle eye precision.

keep coping.

 

[Sparrow's Song]

It's good to cry. Feel good chemicals get released afterwards. I sometimes welcome a good healthy cry. I don't understand those people who never cry.

word

 

[FiveFourManlet]

Until you can accept that what is happening now is actually beneficial, although sad, you can't really claim to be blackpilled.

 

[Red Shambhala]

Sorry to hear that bro.
We need ghost in the shell technology or like in "Altered Carbon" to transform brains into other bodies.

 

[Riceman]

GOAT blackpill movie.

you can't land a 7/10 used up hoar even if you're a billionaire when you're ugly. brutal reality.

 

[Fontaine]

Until you can accept that what is happening now is actually beneficial, although sad, you can't really claim to be blackpilled.

I am the first to admit and rejoice that the forced celibacy of ugly males will slightly improve the general physical appearance of humans over time, and it is, in this aspect, beneficial - however the whole process of biological reproduction and natural selection can hardly be called optimal or fair. Read Houellebecq who has written many better lines than me about this.

 

[jerrycan dan]

U have the technology to go ER though

 

[StaroRavager]

being ashamed of crying - aka toxic masculinity)

In all seriousness though, crying isn’t something to be ashamed of (unless your in public) but crying does me no favors and in my experience causes a negative feedback loop within me. as for

Step 3: reverting back to emotions after you realized the brain is not a rational machine, and "rationalists" are usually just depressed assholes who need Prozac

Your’re probably right, most people can’t pretend to be truly cold and rational beings forever. I find it useful to remain this way however, and to your credit I’m not a complete nihilist asshole as I’m a fairly empathetic person at my core, but I realized that my true nature was simply another limitation, one of many. Once I determined this for myself I found myself in a much better position than the one I formerly occupied

 

[FiveFourManlet]

I am the first to admit and rejoice that the forced celibacy of ugly males will slightly improve the general physical appearance of humans over time, and it is, in this aspect, beneficial - however the whole process of biological reproduction and natural selection can hardly be called optimal or fair. Read Houellebecq who has written many better lines than me about this.

Exactly why i said

is actually beneficial, although sad

 

[Sparrow's Song]

Until you can accept that what is happening now is actually beneficial, although sad, you can't really claim to be blackpilled.

You're right, the Black Pill is the world around me but I'm Clear Pilled. I am Man, I am King of the Beasts of this world and those beasts include the most savage beasts of all... women.

 

[Dude420]

6.9/10 on Imdb

 

[Anger]

I've had lost the ability to cry a while back

 

[Dude420]

I was watching the ending of Vanilla Sky on Youtube, when I suddenly broke down crying. It was one of the most powerful flow of tears I ever experienced in my life, and I didn't know I was still capable of this (my attitude had grown increasingly jaded, serious and cynical in the past decade). A realization (not new, but making an unexpected comeback after many years of repression) had come to me - that my life is a horror show merely because my perfectly good brain is captive of an unfortunate prison of flesh that has too many millimeters of bone growth in the wrong places, and this brain can't be moved to another envelope safely within our current knowledge and medical capabilities.

I calmed down a bit when I reflected on all the other injustices, sometimes a lot worse, that have stricken the human species for millenia.

How bad/good looking on a scale of 10, reading your post it is as if you are a 1-2/10? Is that right?

 

[Gorecel]

it's over! bro it's fucking over

 

[Deleted member 14490]

It's over boyo.

 

[ICanOnlyFapToBDSM]

mmm I bet vanilla sky tastes like bananna pudding and nilla wafers.

 

[LilFatty]

I always try and stop myself from crying. Its a sign of weakness and should be controlled.

 

[ChronicPaincel]

Step 1: emotions
Step 2: rationalism / edgy teenage cynicism ("natural selection", "shit happens", "a human body is just a ball of cells", "man up", being ashamed of crying - aka toxic masculinity)
Step 3: reverting back to emotions after you realized the brain is not a rational machine, and "rationalists" are usually just depressed assholes who need Prozac

I agree, except the Prozac part, basically a chemical lobotomy.

 

[Deleted member 12355]

toxic masculinity

 

[Life Wasted]

We weren't meant for this world, born to fail. There will always be rejects and losers, and we're it. This realization is not a pleasant one. This happens in every species, nature has cruel way of experimenting using the males of a species as test subjects which often produces failures and that's us.

 

[GeneticDysfunction]

We weren't meant for this world, born to fail. There will always be rejects and losers, and we're it. This realization is not a pleasant one. This happens in every species, nature has cruel way of experimenting using the males of a species as test subjects which often produces failures and that's us.

 

[EthnicelNL]

Was your crying also pretentious?

 

[KilluminoidBR]

I am the first to admit and rejoice that the forced celibacy of ugly males will slightly improve the general physical appearance of humans over time, and it is, in this aspect, beneficial - however the whole process of biological reproduction and natural selection can hardly be called optimal or fair. Read Houellebecq who has written many better lines than me about this.

Remember that ugly woman are still reproducing with betabuxxers bro.

We wont be the last generation of incels in the earth

 

[FaceandHFD]

Was your crying also pretentious?

 

[Deleted member 126]

Jesus wept.

 

[Mainländer]

I'll definitely watch that movie as soon as I go back home. It has been years since i last cried and I think it'd do me good tbh (I hope I cry).

Also, powerful and poetic words. I was obsessed about it a while ago: if my brain was moved to the body of a 17yo Chad, I would be perfectly able to do everything I want to do the most with barely any effort. But in my current ugly and old "envelope", it's absolutely inadmissible and so many fucking things stand in my way. Including the fucking LAW.

This is mind-boggling, revolting, no matter how many times I think about it.

 

[IsolationHurts]

GOAT blackpill movie.

you can't land a 7/10 used up hoar even if you're a billionaire when you're ugly. brutal reality.

This. Im spanish and i watched the original (Abre los ojos) when i was 16-18. Brutal blackpill actually. Its like its completely obvious that being ugly is hell because nobody will ever love you, like you or respect you..., that idea remains implicit and is never discussed throughout the film. Also, the spanish one is dirtier, crueler and the guy suffers even more than the american remake, if i remember correctly.