SuicideFuel I have reached dangerous levels of nihilism that is not letting me make any new ventures

[mrqwerty]

I dont know how to put this without sounding edgy but i have absolutely no love towards my parents. They never made me enjoy my childhood by taking me outside and now i dont even know how to enjoy simple things in life. I think all of that lack of pleasure has made my brain subconsiously think nothing matters or things are pointless.

I feel like posting replies on thousands of inceldom discussion catalog, i feel like making a twitter account and understand how twitter works( tweets, quote tweets and all that shit i keep hearing), feel like making a acc on tumblr and other social media sites and learn to use them, i feel like watching something on youtube that would make me a better person, feel like going out with my friends but that would mean i would have to beg my parents for money( which my ego doesnt allow), my teachers could definitely tell something was wrong with me since i wasnt mingling with others or bother answering any questions and advices me to read a book( reading a book about life is extremely bluepilled,how will a book make any difference in my life) and the list goes on............. but i cant figure out why i dont want to do any of those and i dont find any of those rewarding

My drive for trying to do any of those in the first place is for the sense of superiority and grandiosity i would have over my peers if i knew more than them, but that drive clearly isnt enough. If you dont make new decisions, you wouldnt know new things and thats how i dont know how this world works

My friends who live in the moment and have no tension of the future enjoy themselves so easily i wonder where did it all go wrong for me.... They are low iq pathetic bitches but they clearly make more life decision as the above and that makes them better than me...... still my ego doesnt agree to them being better than me. My low iq cuck poor pathetic ugly cunt ass nigger niceguy cocksucking tranny worshipping bitchy parents are to blame...

Being rich is clearly a halo effect( If your rich, you know more people, if you know more people you would know new activities and places, then you would know how things works and that feeds your dopamine receptors rewarding you to make new decisions.

RICH - (HAVE MONEY, MAKE NEW DECISIONS, SUCCEED, DOPAMINE REWARDS YOU MAKE NEW DECISIONS)
POOR- (NO MONEY, DONT MAKE NEW DECISIONS, DONT SUCCEED OR EVEN FAIL, DOPAMINE DOESNT REWARD AND YOU DONT MAKE ANY NEW DECISIONS)

What do i do bros how can i get out of this situation

 

[Cristo]

I’ve found a quite large amount of people, seemingly normals, having those same thoughts. You are not special or great. A bit narcissistic, so am I and many more incels, but that’s it. You read quite young, you still have got time to live. Go alone and out of your country. Indeed you need to force yourself into a situation where you are obliged to act, somehow, or die. You also read like a minor so just go crazy, nothing bad will really happen to you, legally or otherwise.
You are right about books teaching nothing. You have to live FIRST, and then you will start understanding literature. Experiencemaxxing, literally. Do that or rot.

 

[Theinvoluntarycelib]

I should not be replying to this, but here I am. Sheesh...

I dont know how to put this without sounding edgy but i have absolutely no love towards my parents

My low iq cuck poor pathetic ugly cunt ass nigger niceguy cocksucking tranny worshipping bitchy parents are to blame

Did your parent abuse you? Did they make you feel unprotected, uncared for, leave you to yourself and not give a fuck?

To me, this seems like a whine post. You are high-inhib, and think that your parents are 100% to blame for something you've been doing to yourself. Incel, you have no idea what it is like to not have parents, and to feel love from the only ones on this planet who will ever care about you. So stfu.

You seem to be in highschool. I understand that a lot of the time, it is over before you know it, and if the chances elude you in highschool, there's a good chance you will keep missing them into adulthood. I feel for you there.

My friends who live in the moment and have no tension of the future enjoy themselves so easily i wonder where did it all go wrong for me.... They are low iq pathetic bitches but they clearly make more life decision as the above and that makes them better than me

If they are better decision-makers than you, then they are most likely not dumber than you in those specific areas. Your ego is blocking your view, I get it, but you're making a very grave mistake in underestimating people.

It is alright. You are probably going to go through a very hard blackpilling course through your teenage and 20s, at the end of which your ego won't really matter. You'll grow out of it. For now, I suggest you concentrate on what you can do instead of what they do. Comparing a beta soyboy like yourself to chads isn't going to make you feel any better. You've already lost.

 

[El Enemigo]

Solve your money problem first