LDAR I think i have reached a point where mental health is not gona get better

[kay']

Health wise, i will get better i know because i already am even if very slowly.

But mental health is gone, not just because im incel, i honestly do not care that much anymore.

Yes im 5'3" it was over before it began, i cant get pussy and i have to work for it not get it naturally, ok thats fine, it's life.

But howcome i dont have one thing i can look at and say "ok atleast i have this".

I think ive been tortured in many different ways for the past 10 years you have no idea, if i start writing my life story the servers would crash and rope.

Today just now i saw a very low iq tik tok ad made with Ai using an aryan stacy to sell a phone charger, like its so fucking cringe dude this life, nothing but sex and using sex to sell in order to get more sex and everyone is just retarded undeserving of breathing the same air i am breathing.

I am ashamed to be human, i deserve to be another alien species much smarter and just fucking better.

And it just dawned on me, literally this life is just one big joke and im never gona be happy not now and up till the second i take my final breath im gona be in constant semi fight or flight and half suicidal half cringe motivation based on nothing mood.

I think people like me need to be given euthanasia by force for their own good, because im just not fixable anymore and to me everything now feels like a waste of time.

I will never be happy, too many mistakes were made from me and everyone in charge of raising me.

 

[kay']

Im gona have a cig

 

[Sub3Mordor]

This is a incel way

 

[RealSchizo]

Health wise, i will get better i know because i already am even if very slowly.

But mental health is gone, not just because im incel, i honestly do not care that much anymore.

Yes im 5'3" it was over before it began, i cant get pussy and i have to work for it not get it naturally, ok thats fine, it's life.

But howcome i dont have one thing i can look at and say "ok atleast i have this".

I think ive been tortured in many different ways for the past 10 years you have no idea, if i start writing my life story the servers would crash and rope.

Today just now i saw a very low iq tik tok ad made with Ai using an aryan stacy to sell a phone charger, like its so fucking cringe dude this life, nothing but sex and using sex to sell in order to get more sex and everyone is just retarded undeserving of breathing the same air i am breathing.

I am ashamed to be human, i deserve to be another alien species much smarter and just fucking better.

And it just dawned on me, literally this life is just one big joke and im never gona be happy not now and up till the second i take my final breath im gona be in constant semi fight or flight and half suicidal half cringe motivation based on nothing mood.

I think people like me need to be given euthanasia by force for their own good, because im just not fixable anymore and to me everything now feels like a waste of time.

I will never be happy, too many mistakes were made from me and everyone in charge of raising me.

Start sharing your experiences with life, would be interesting, even though most of our lives had followed similar paths. It begins with ostracization when you're a kid because of your looks, or bullying, which inevitably results to rotting, and missing out on very important milestones necessary for a proper human development.

 

[kay']

Start sharing your experiences with life, would be interesting, even though most of our lives had followed similar paths. It begins with ostracization when you're a kid because of your looks, or bullying, which inevitably results to rotting, and missing out on very important milestones necessary for a proper human development.

Its like what you said exactly in simple terms, it starts like that then it gets alot uglier for me over the course of growing up more and more and hitting puberty to the point where i reached a brick wall in everything i am trying to achieve wether sexual or not.

But the thing is as i said i dont think venting here or to a therapist would help me anymore, i have vented alot to people irl close to me and to few therapists and ultimately nobody cares or can help in a significant way.

I need real change, like a million dollar for example gifted to me as compensation for the literal hell that was imposed on me for no reason, or to get my bullies round up infront of me and i kill all their families infront of them.

I need revenge on life itself else nothing gona patch this mental bullet hole in my head.

 

[RealSchizo]

Its like what you said exactly in simple terms, it starts like that then it gets alot uglier for me over the course of growing up more and more and hitting puberty to the point where i reached a brick wall in everything i am trying to achieve wether sexual or not.

But the thing is as i said i dont think venting here or to a therapist would help me anymore, i have vented alot to people irl close to me and to few therapists and ultimately nobody cares or can help in a significant way.

I need real change, like a million dollar for example gifted to me as compensation for the literal hell that was imposed on me for no reason, or to get my bullies round up infront of me and i kill all their families infront of them.

I need revenge on life itself else nothing gona patch this mental bullet hole in my head.

Yeah, I understand. Nowadays my mental health is in the gutter, even worse I can't sleep. Even if I do fall asleep by any chance, I dream of nightmares, It's fucking hell. Can't even escape this realm for a few hours via sleepmaxxing. I would dream about traumatic events throughout my childhood, wake up miserable and tired with no proper rest. Fuck this shit, mang. I've been sleep deprived for 2 weeks now, haven't had a quality sleep in such a long time. Perpetually fatigued, tired, miserable, angry. This is my fucking life. I feel like I am very close to the edge of either saying fuck it all and rot for the rest of my life, or just rope. Shit is beyond unbearable.

 

[kay']

I can't sleep. Even if I do fall asleep by any chance, I dream of nightmares, It's fucking hell.

Exactly the same for me i just woke after 4 hours and will just rot in bed

 

[LeFrenchCel]

Indeed it will never get better.

It's only downhill and the only interrogation is how low things can go, and how deep into depression you can fall.