It's Over I have permanent mental trauma from extreme loneliness at a young age

[ColdBoy]

Even when I was 11-12 (at the time fairly normal) stupid shit like having ZERO friends, being chosen last at gym class, not having partners for partner activities in school fundamentally changed who I am. I use to be neurotypical and by the time I was 13 I could barely talk to anyone. By 14-15 I developed delusions and schizophrenic paranoia. I am only getting better now after 6 YEARS. FFS the blackpill literally changes who you are as a person. You can ignore the blackpill, the blackpill will never ignore YOU!

 

[aswellfella]

I remember going insane when I was 13 and experienced a summer without friends. When school started and I could socialize again, it magically went away.

 

[ColdBoy]

I remember going insane when I was 13 and experienced a summer without friends. When school started and I could socialize again, it magically went away.

Similar effect for me. The more I see people the less disturbing thoughts come into my head. Delusions also became less bad

 

[aswellfella]

Similar effect for me. The more I see people the less disturbing thoughts come into my head. Delusions also became less bad

This website also help. Nice to talk to someone, at least. Even fellow crazies.

 

[fructose]

i had to be in a hospital for 3 months because of being schizo, they put me on pills that made me gain a shit ton of weight and made me into a complete zombie.

 

[UglyDumbass]

due to bullying i became more socially awkward and angry Alot of us uglies have issues due to what people did to us

 

[ColdBoy]

due to bullying i became more socially awkward and angry Alot of us uglies have issues due to what people did to us

its fucked up that even young children arnt spared from the blackpill

 

[Da_Yunez]

Even when I was 11-12 (at the time fairly normal) stupid shit like having ZERO friends, being chosen last at gym class, not having partners for partner activities in school fundamentally changed who I am. I use to be neurotypical and by the time I was 13 I could barely talk to anyone. By 14-15 I developed delusions and schizophrenic paranoia. I am only getting better now after 6 YEARS. FFS the blackpill literally changes who you are as a person. You can ignore the blackpill, the blackpill will never ignore YOU!

Can relate with having no friends since the age of 13, Loneliness absolutely crushes your soul at every level, even worse if experienced at such a formative age.

 

[ColdBoy]

Can relate with having no friends since the age of 13, Loneliness absolutely crushes your soul at every level, even worse if experienced at such a formative age.

fr I have permanent social anxiety from this shit still not recovered 6 years later

 

[Da_Yunez]

fr I have permanent social anxiety from this shit still not recovered 6 years later

Newsflash: you wont, the damage is done, loneliness during a critical stage of social development will ruin your life as you know it, your psyche is already altered forever.

 

[ColdBoy]

Newsflash: you wont, the damage is done, loneliness during a critical stage of social development will ruin your life as you know it, your psyche is already altered forever.

I recovered quite a bit already

 

[Da_Yunez]

I recovered quite a bit already

You dont fully do, like 100%, its altered your psyche forever.

 

[AustrianMogger]

Even when I was 11-12 (at the time fairly normal) stupid shit like having ZERO friends, being chosen last at gym class, not having partners for partner activities in school fundamentally changed who I am. I use to be neurotypical and by the time I was 13 I could barely talk to anyone. By 14-15 I developed delusions and schizophrenic paranoia. I am only getting better now after 6 YEARS. FFS the blackpill literally changes who you are as a person. You can ignore the blackpill, the blackpill will never ignore YOU!

I feel you bro. Not having a partner during partner activities was so bad haha. Don't know what it's like having delusions and schizophrenic paranoia tho. But yeah, I hope it gets better for you brocel. Love you

 

[ColdBoy]

You dont fully do, like 100%, its altered your psyche forever.

agreed. I wish other kids and teachers wernt such ass holes. They obviously didn't have to do these stupid "partner" style activities if they knew some kids would be singled out

 

[ColdBoy]

I feel you bro. Not having a partner during partner activities was so bad haha. Don't know what it's like having delusions and schizophrenic paranoia tho. But yeah, I hope it gets better for you brocel. Love you

Thanks man. I remember literally having a sharp pain in my chest when a teacher mentioned "partners"

 

[VideoGameCoper]

Newsflash: you wont, the damage is done, loneliness during a critical stage of social development will ruin your life as you know it, your psyche is already altered forever.

Yes. No matter where you go, what you do, who you meet in the future, rotting in your formative years has scarred you deep. Wounds so deep they never heal, they never go away. Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past, bringing back these memories I wish I didn’t have. Some of us may have been happy as a child, but rotting in our formative years has altered our brains forever and we did not develop correctly

 

[ColdBoy]

Yes. No matter where you go, what you do, who you meet in the future, rotting in your formative years has scarred you deep. Wounds so deep they never heal, they never go away. Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past, bringing back these memories I wish I didn’t have. Some of us may have been happy as a child, but rotting in our formative years has altered our brains forever and we did not develop correctly

That is so fucked up. The black pill doesn't even spare children. Raising kids with no friends should be a criminal offense

 

[Left4DeadKoala]

You can ignore the blackpill, the blackpill will never ignore YOU!

 

[Da_Yunez]

Yes. No matter where you go, what you do, who you meet in the future, rotting in your formative years has scarred you deep. Wounds so deep they never heal, they never go away. Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past, bringing back these memories I wish I didn’t have. Some of us may have been happy as a child, but rotting in our formative years has altered our brains forever and we did not develop correctly

We missed SO MANY developmental milestones its crazy, at heart we are still children, we were never indicted or given the rite of passage to actual soyciety.

 

[ColdBoy]

We missed SO MANY developmental milestones its crazy, at heart we are still children, we were never indicted or given the rite of passage to actual soyciety.

do you think me becoming a soldier will change that?

 

[VideoGameCoper]

We missed SO MANY developmental milestones its crazy, at heart we are still children, we were never indicted or given the rite of passage to actual soyciety.

Yep. Too many copers just think you can get a gf at 20 or some shit and you will be fine. You will never be fine. I’m like a giant man child in many ways. Never got a chance to have a peer friend group in high school, never got teen love, never even went to one party in high school

 

[Da_Yunez]

do you think me becoming a soldier will change that?

Nope and also, dont fucking do it bro, dont go die for israhell and for kikes that dont give a shit about you.

 

[Da_Yunez]

Yep. Too many copers just think you can get a gf at 20 or some shit and you will be fine. You will never be fine. I’m like a giant man child in many ways. Never got a chance to have a peer friend group in high school, never got teen love, never even went to one party in high school

as inkwell never indicted into soyciety, you are at heart a child, simple as that.

 

[VideoGameCoper]

as inkwell never indicted into soyciety, you are at heart a child, simple as that.

Yep. Also, I often reminisce about my childhood because that was the only time in life I wasn’t lonely and actually felt happy overall. I have vivid positive childhood memories from a decade or more ago, but hardly any memories from my teenage years because nothing good really happened then. I’m stuck in the part because I never met the developmental milestones to move on

 

[Da_Yunez]

Yep. Also, I often reminisce about my childhood because that was the only time in life I wasn’t lonely and actually felt happy overall. I have vivid positive childhood memories from a decade or more ago, but hardly any memories from my teenage years because nothing good really happened then. I’m stuck in the part because I never met the developmental milestones to move on

At heart im still like a little kid yearning for a hug, for a snuggle, for a kiss I will never get.

 

[AustrianMogger]

Yep. Also, I often reminisce about my childhood because that was the only time in life I wasn’t lonely and actually felt happy overall. I have vivid positive childhood memories from a decade or more ago, but hardly any memories from my teenage years because nothing good really happened then. I’m stuck in the part because I never met the developmental milestones to move on

Same man. I always think about my childhood. When life was fair. And I was happy.

 

[VideoGameCoper]

At heart im still like a little kid yearning for a hug, for a snuggle, for a kiss I will never get.

Same. Brutal part is, if we ever managed to get gfs, the girls would already be experienced. It would be our first love and would feel like heaven to us to finally be loved, but it would just be another normal day for the woman.

 

[VideoGameCoper]

Same man. I always think about my childhood. When life was fair. And I was happy.

Yep. My childhood was good. I’m glad I was bluepilled then, and just enjoyed life. Never could have imagined this is how it would turn out

 

[Da_Yunez]

Same. Brutal part is, if we ever managed to get gfs, the girls would already be experienced. It would be our first love and would feel like heaven to us to finally be loved, but it would just be another normal day for the woman.

Our natural reaction would be to hang on for dear life, but foids hate the Non Chad's Clinginess, they would get rid of you in a heartbeat. (As Non Chad you are utterly replaceable and you will not have her genuine love and desire.)

 

[VideoGameCoper]

Our natural reaction would be to hang on for dear life, but foids hate the Non Chad's Clinginess, they would get rid of you in a heartbeat. (As Non Chad you are utterly replaceable and you will not have her genuine love and desire.)

Yep. We would cherish the relationship because it would be the best hung we ever had in our lives, while she would just discard us. It’s kinda like is you gave an average car to a rich guy. He wouldn’t care about it and would get rid of it, but if the same car was given to a poor guy with nothing (us when it comes to relationships), he would be extremely grateful and love the car and take amazing care of it

 

[Da_Yunez]

Yep. We would cherish the relationship because it would be the best hung we ever had in our lives, while she would just discard us. It’s kinda like is you gave an average car to a rich guy. He wouldn’t care about it and would get rid of it, but if the same car was given to a poor guy with nothing (us when it comes to relationships), he would be extremely grateful and love the car and take amazing care of it

agree 100%, we are the clingy puppies while she doesnt give a shit about you, brutal. (They really dont about Non Chads.)

 

[VideoGameCoper]

agree 100%, we are the clingy puppies while she doesnt give a shit about you. (They never dont about Non Chads.)

It’s brutal how the smallest bit of love would mean the world to us, but females get love handed to them so easily it means nothing to them

 

[AustrianMogger]

It’s brutal how the smallest bit of love would mean the world to us, but females get love handed to them so easily it means nothing to them

Too real

 

[Da_Yunez]

It’s brutal how the smallest bit of love would mean the world to us, but females get love handed to them so easily it means nothing to them

Real

 

[VideoGameCoper]

Too real

Yeah, it hurts

 

[HeinzKell]

Even when I was 11-12 (at the time fairly normal) stupid shit like having ZERO friends, being chosen last at gym class, not having partners for partner activities in school fundamentally changed who I am. I use to be neurotypical and by the time I was 13 I could barely talk to anyone. By 14-15 I developed delusions and schizophrenic paranoia. I am only getting better now after 6 YEARS. FFS the blackpill literally changes who you are as a person. You can ignore the blackpill, the blackpill will never ignore YOU!

Brutal. Some of the earliest memories I have are me in elementary school being a total outcast nobody. I wish I can place a finger on when exactly everything went wrong

 

[XDFLAMEBOY]

Even when I was 11-12 (at the time fairly normal) stupid shit like having ZERO friends, being chosen last at gym class, not having partners for partner activities in school fundamentally changed who I am. I use to be neurotypical and by the time I was 13 I could barely talk to anyone. By 14-15 I developed delusions and schizophrenic paranoia. I am only getting better now after 6 YEARS. FFS the blackpill literally changes who you are as a person. You can ignore the blackpill, the blackpill will never ignore YOU!

I remember getting so angry about no body wanted to talk to me back then that I slammed the locker door

 

[MammothIncel]

same it never even began for us lonelycels since childhood

 

[overbeforeitbegan]

Same, started hallucinating recently. I'm not going go make it to 40

 

[jbwbeliever]

larp? or real schizophrenic paranoia

 

[ColdBoy]

larp? or real schizophrenic paranoia

it was very real. I had delusions and was paranoid asf but no hallucinations

 

[PurgatoryPass]

Similar effect for me. The more I see people the less disturbing thoughts come into my head. Delusions also became less bad

I have to agree. Most of the time I don't even enjoy other people but if I spend too long alone the "sickness" hits. My voice goes down an octave but its not sexy its death.

 

[Friezacel]

Same, started hallucinating recently. I'm not going go make it to 40

hallucinating wont shorten your lifespan

 

[Cock'nBalls]

i had mild schizo experiences before but after taking the it just went away probably because i viewed the world and my own self more rationally.

 

[overbeforeitbegan]

hallucinating wont shorten your lifespan

No, hallucinating won't.
I will