I always wanted to have a girl to marry and to be serious with, I never had a GF or even contact with a girl with romantic intentions in my life.
I tried to wagecuck with the sole reason in order to 'socializemaxx' and maybe meet a girl, It did not happen and thus i quit wagecucking. I also didn't make any friends or any people to socialize with, in every break I would sit alone browsing behind my smartphone. I quit my job recently because the lifestyle of endless waging and coming back to house without any social interaction and no female didn't satisfy me. So I tried to make friends and socialize at work but nevertheless I couldn't make friends or get a girl to meet or whatever, I just can't fit into normie culture and the interests of the normie is a foreign world for me.
I also tried tinder and other dating applications to try to meet a girl which all ended in failure because I didn't get matches (duh I'm too ugly for modern women), so I basically did all attempts and everything failed. I attempted to socialmaxx which failed, I attempted wagecuckmaxxing which failed, I attempted datingappmaxxing which also failed. It is really over for me in the west after all these attempts, currently I've given up on wagecucking and everything else in life and I'm back to LDAR lifestyle. My nihilistic inner self becomes stronger by the day which leads me to have no hope for the future. Especially when taking into consideration that hypergamy has no boundaries and will only evolve and becoming stronger by the day, it means it's over for me in the west.
My last attempt is emigrating back to my country of origin in North Africa (even though I wasn't born there and never lived there), however the problem of this are also many: Hypergamy and leftist degenerate culture is growing bigger there and I need a lot of money to go back to that country and resettle which means I need to wagecuck again and save money for many years in a row. I don't think that's realistic for me because of depression and blackpill mindset I can never hold on to wagecuck. At the beginning wagecucking feels good, after a few months when being confronted by reality it's just a brutal suicidefuel. Respect to incels who are holding up the wagecucking for years after years, how the fuck did you guys didn't rope yet?
As of now, I have no fucking idea what to do in life.My daily routine is waking up and sitting behind the computer the whole day. I fucking hate women and hate their guts, I fucking hate this world.
I tried to wagecuck with the sole reason in order to 'socializemaxx' and maybe meet a girl, It did not happen and thus i quit wagecucking. I also didn't make any friends or any people to socialize with, in every break I would sit alone browsing behind my smartphone. I quit my job recently because the lifestyle of endless waging and coming back to house without any social interaction and no female didn't satisfy me. So I tried to make friends and socialize at work but nevertheless I couldn't make friends or get a girl to meet or whatever, I just can't fit into normie culture and the interests of the normie is a foreign world for me.
I also tried tinder and other dating applications to try to meet a girl which all ended in failure because I didn't get matches (duh I'm too ugly for modern women), so I basically did all attempts and everything failed. I attempted to socialmaxx which failed, I attempted wagecuckmaxxing which failed, I attempted datingappmaxxing which also failed. It is really over for me in the west after all these attempts, currently I've given up on wagecucking and everything else in life and I'm back to LDAR lifestyle. My nihilistic inner self becomes stronger by the day which leads me to have no hope for the future. Especially when taking into consideration that hypergamy has no boundaries and will only evolve and becoming stronger by the day, it means it's over for me in the west.
My last attempt is emigrating back to my country of origin in North Africa (even though I wasn't born there and never lived there), however the problem of this are also many: Hypergamy and leftist degenerate culture is growing bigger there and I need a lot of money to go back to that country and resettle which means I need to wagecuck again and save money for many years in a row. I don't think that's realistic for me because of depression and blackpill mindset I can never hold on to wagecuck. At the beginning wagecucking feels good, after a few months when being confronted by reality it's just a brutal suicidefuel. Respect to incels who are holding up the wagecucking for years after years, how the fuck did you guys didn't rope yet?
As of now, I have no fucking idea what to do in life.My daily routine is waking up and sitting behind the computer the whole day. I fucking hate women and hate their guts, I fucking hate this world.
